My personal 100 reasons to ctb

[Liebestod]

In my last post I talked about how I had posted a list of 100 reasons why I would ctb on the suicidewatch subreddit and a member wanted me to post it on here so here it is. Bare in mind some of them are a bit repetitive and I made this list about a year ago.

1. I hate living
2. I hate my life
3. I hate society
4. I don't want to participate in society
5. I don't want to grow old
6. I'm severely depressed
7. I'm lonely
8. I hate people
9. I can't feel pleasure
10. I hate the way I look
11. Death is better than a life of hell on earth
12. Living is boring
13. Life has no purpose
14. Life is suffering
15. I hate culture
16. I don't enjoy anything
17. Everything is meaningless
18. Life is a monotonous cycle
19. I don't want to get a job
20. I don't want to pay bills
21. I don't want to work for somebody
22. I don't like interacting with people
23. I don't want to pay taxes
24. I hate maintaining myself
25. I don't want to plan for the future
26. I can't kill everyone in the world
27. I can't control everyone in the world
28. I don't want to follow rules
29. I can't be at peace
30. I want it all but can't have it all
31. I'm doomed for eternal loneliness
32. I can't trust anyone
33. The human condition was made to be monotonous and miserable
34. Everyday is mundane
35. Everything is a lie
36. I hate shit
37. I hate life
38. I love death
39. I don't want to pay to live
40. I never wanted to be born
41. I don't care about anything
42. Existing is stressful
43. I hate my name and my face
44. Everyday is an existential crisis
45. Individualism is dead
46. Love isn't real
47. People are like seasons they change for no reason
48. Looks determine perception
49. Happiness is an illusion
50. Everything eventually becomes monotonous
51. I'm going to die anyway
52. Life is a twisted joke
53. Nothing truly matters
54. Everything is unpredictable
55. Everything is terrible
56. I hate tribalism
57. I'm surrounded by unbearable beasts
58. I don't want to be apart of this stupid rat race human competition
59. Life is hopeless
60. I'm not interested in anything
61. I don't want to live for the sake of other people
62. I'm running out of time
63. I don't want to be a money slave
64. I can't have world domination
65. Freedom doesn't exist
66. Suicide is bliss
67. I will finally not be at war with myself and the world
68. Living is a scam
69. I don't want to do anything
70. I think too much
71. Life is unfair
72. Existing isn't worth it
73. Life is overrated
74. Life gets worse over time
75. I've had enough of everything
76. I will be away from you disgusting wretched poisonous beings
77. Suicide will solve all my problems
78. I hate morality
79. Society rewards extroverts and belittles introverts
80. I don't fit in
81. I don't want to live under government control
82. I hate the human experience
83. I hate the world
84. I can never win
85. Everyone is conspiring against me
86. I can't act out any of my sexual fantasies
87. I will never be able to do whatever I want
88. I don't belong here
89. People only "love" you for what you offer not for who you are
90. I've been ostracized since birth
91. I don't want to be reduced to a human label
92. I don't want to be apart of any tribe or community
93. I hate authority and don't want to comply
94. There is no god or afterlife
95. I don't deserve this
96. I hate civilization
97. Life isn't fair
98. Problems always arise
99. I hate social order
100. My life is a miserable nightmare

 

[sinfonia]

So basically depression? None of these things are bad in themselves except for 6 and 9.

 

[Liebestod]

So basically depression? None of these things are bad in themselves except for 6 and 9.

You could say that to sum them up. The mods made it so that the reasons couldn't be seen anymore after it got like 600+ upvotes.

 

[unluckysadness]

I could write the same list with more than 100 reasons but I'm too tired. I wish peace to everyone

 

[WPack]

We have 100 Reasons not to CTB VS 100 Reasons to CTB

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i agree with a lot of your reasons . here are some of my reasons why i want to kill myself asap and i'm not even including personal reasons just general ones:

not really in order except for #1 which is the worst . some just off the top of my head . note that none of these evils are in non-existence forever which guarantees safety from all pain , suffering ,problems, evils , bad memories forever.
1. unending constant unbearable pain is probable
1, pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine ( why they torture people? hmm )
1. what is worth even 10 minutes of the constant worst pain every second?
1. nothing is even worth 1 second of the worst pain to me
2. old age
3. diseases.
4. posibility of ending up in nursing homes
5. probabliity of attacks from humans dogs etc.
6. parasites like tapeworm . see show monsters inside me
7. probabliity of Ms, cancer, dementia, lyme from tick bite, ataksia
8. grief
9. injustice
10.oppression.
11. lies
12. scams
13. the extreme suicide prohibition state this world is
14. evil of this world and humans
15. life and this world is imposed prison slavery torture
16. have to work a job
17. every day unending chores
18. brainwashing
19. meaningless bad habits like me watching youtube social media news media movies
20.rare diseases
21 brain stroke
22. anuerysm
23 alshiemers
24. brain damage from accident or fall or blow
25. no purpose to life
26 life is meaningless
27. pain is a billion times worse than one can imagine ( why they torture people? hmm )
28. law of entropy
24. life is a scam
25. nobody sees life me a human like what i see only cells chemical reactions a book more things
26. imo nobody knows reality as in we are just cells chemical reactions but a book more imo.
27. imo nobody knows we are just a brain brain cells that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain
28. nothing matters except me avoiding excruciating unbearable pain.
29. life has tortured trillions of trilions of animals for 520 million years including billions of humans.
30. i worked in a nursing home this is what awaits many (most?) humans it's hell
31. even fish feel extreme pain most animals die by being eaten alive by other animals diseases or parasites
32. life is the only function in the universe that causes unbearable pain and suffering or any pain or any suffering
33. non-existence forever is the only gurantee of never suffering so badly it's a trillion times worse than one can imagine
34. eternal non-existence means no chance of pain , problems , suffering, bad memories ever.
35 . 1 second after my brain dies it's non-existence forever
36. depression
37 . boredum
38. regret
39. unfullfilled needs.
40 . wasting time lost time due to time wasting habits like watching youtube addiction
45. kidnapping
46. rape
47. torture
48. false inprisonment
49. someone stealing evryething like a hacker your identity and money
50. life is meaningless suffering.
51 nothing matters especially all the garbage they tell you is so important
52. what will matter in a 1000 years, a trillion years? nothing
53. probability of ending up homeless
54. why do i have to live even one more minute? there is no reason
55. they made all guranteed suicide methods into crimes
56. inlfation. since 1913 the dollar is 1/30th of what it was . so 10 an hour would be 300 dollars an hour.
57. people could afford houses even with lower end jobs in the 1950's through 2005 imo
58. possibility of car accident or getting hit by car and remaining alive
59. parlyzing accidents
60. stress
61. disolusionment
62. having to fucking clean everything every day and fix everything
63. nightmares
64. life is constant problems suffering work chores all just to risk extreme torture and get old
65. permanent non-existence non-existence forever is the only perfection the ultimate bliss
66. worry anxiety
67. corruption.
68. gasligthing
69 .propaganda
70. evil.
71. unfairness
72. i'm just cells a machine chemical reactions a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain
73. there is no afterlife no reincarnation 1 micro-second after my brain dies i will cease to exist forever the ultimate bliss
74. all these reasons sit on top of each other and corrupt the supposedely "enjoyable" plesasure addictions . it's all part of the same evil.
75. my life is horrible but i'll leave out the specifics
76. i have having to feed myself all the time, groceries etc. how can everyone be ok with this?
77. we're all slaves prisoners
78. i never asked to be brought into this hell it was imposed on me

many more a book more and each of these above are also a chapter to begin to explain

partly because eternal non-existence is the opposite of life and gurantees none of these horrors especially unbearable pain then permanent non-existence non-existence forever is the only perfection the ultimate bliss, the ultimate perfection