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flutebloom

flutebloom

Someone who deserves a better ending
Apr 4, 2025
97
The reason my life is hell is because of the choices my parents made to control me and because of my own fears surrounding their decisions and the pressure they were putting on me

There is poison running through my veins from an injection I got almost a year ago. It permanently damaged my brain and my body. It's called Invega Sustenna and it destroyed my future and every living moment is pure torture.

My parents know im suicidal and they do everything in their power to stop me from attempting like blocking my access to money. No freedom to leave the house. My dad is still a joint account holder on my bank account and I'm an adult and he drained all of the money from it. I've been dead broke for a year.

Well-
I've finally put together a plan where I can leave and I'm going to do it this week, potentially tomorrow.

I took a picture of my mom's credit card when she wasn't paying attention yesterday. So that's basically my only chance at getting out of here. I'm going to use it to order an Uber to either a bridge or a tall building, or to meet a ctb partner I met on the megathread who I talk to every day. He has multiple guns and we are going to suicide together. It's not the best plan I know and things could go wrong but I have no other choice.

I might post an actual goodbye thread when I do it. I wasn't sure if I would or not but I think I will just so I can fill up my mind with thoughts and distractions.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
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So sorry my friend, some people don't deserve to be parents
 
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rainatthetraintrack

rainatthetraintrack

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Jul 1, 2025
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i plan to write an absolutely scathing suicide note addressed to my parents and specifically my mother if i decide to ctb.
tho i haven't decided yet if i will ctb or leave notes after i die.
also plan on writing more notes to send to ppl i know absolving them of any guilt and telling them not to worry because i ctbed peacefully with SN.
 
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