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YunoAtsuko

YunoAtsuko

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Jul 9, 2025
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The title says it all.
And my boyfriend admitted to flirting with her (for reasons I forgot.) which made her comfortable enough for her to send him nudes. And he waited almost a week to tell me. I want to die. I hate this. I can't do this anymore, it's always something. Something. Something... I want to do something to myself. I wanted to buy him a ring ... I might Uber it to a hotel and commit. I don't know how much longer I can stay stable like this. I'm ripping at the seams. My boyfriend is my everything. And please, don't say anything like "he's not worth killing yourself over" because truthfully I don't really care. I've been looking for a reason to do it honestly and this might be the straw that breaks the camels back. I've always pussied out of my last "attempts" but this time I'll be serious. Im disgusted and appalled.
 
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Unsure and Useless

Unsure and Useless

Dreaming Endlessly, not Wanting to Wake Up
Feb 7, 2023
599
And my boyfriend admitted to flirting with her (for reasons I forgot.) which made her comfortable enough for her to send him nudes. And he waited almost a week to tell me.
I'm sorry this happened to you. Your mom and boyfriend are pieces of shit for betraying you like this, absolutely abhorrent scum of the earth. You loved him a lot, even so much that you were going to buy him a ring, and he did this to you? It's always the people who deserve it the least that experience the cruelest things in life

I might Uber it to a hotel and commit. I don't know how much longer I can stay stable like this. I'm ripping at the seams. My boyfriend is my everything. And please, don't say anything like "he's not worth killing yourself over" because truthfully I don't really care.
Even if you're still going to CTB, could you possibly try treating yourself to something? I don't know, but maybe buy yourself something sweet or savory or whatever you want. You could use that ring money for something that makes you happy. You deserve some comfort/something nice in your last moments

I've been looking for a reason to do it honestly and this might be the straw that breaks the camels back. I've always pussied out of my last "attempts" but this time I'll be serious.
I hope you're able to find peace 🕊️
 
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no mas

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Jan 19, 2025
50
That's Disgusting and Despicable. She has no moral compass.
I knew a girl a long time ago, way back in the day long before the internet was available, she was well known porn star and she had a teenage daughter about age 16. I was like 20 at the time, she was a lot older, maybe about 32. I was at her house one morning having breakfast and I noticed the picture of her and a few teenagers, not having ever met her daughter all I said after pointing one girl out inmocently as very pretty... Well that was enough to blow her a hole in my head, she tore into me saying if you ever say anything about her looks again I'll cut your balls off, it was her daughter and the way she said it was very real. Yeah she was dangerous and that was before the notorious Lorena Bobbit.
So you are very right to be disgusted. If he couldnt tell you for that week, maybe he was also confused. If he didnt go any further and loves you anywhere close to the way you love him, then I think you can strengthen your relationship rather than throw it away, damage yourself or CTB. You sound very young and quite emotional, and who wouldnt be hurt by such crap? See if you and he can heal and move forward with him or someone who loves and cherishes like you do. Keep calm and dont quit on life. Your best days are ahead of you.
 
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SASU-KE

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Nov 26, 2025
612
Since you love him very much and don't want to separate from him....

I have a question, has he done this before or is this the first time? If it's the first time, have a serious talk with him, find out where his head is at and then tell him this can never happen again and you'll forgive him this one single time. There is a possibility that he learns from his mistake and you have a happy life together.


If he's done this kind of thing before, however, I'm sorry to tell you that he can't be trusted.
 
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lotus11

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May 18, 2019
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This is absolutely vile. Just reading this makes me feel ill.
 
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YunoAtsuko

YunoAtsuko

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Jul 9, 2025
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Since you love him very much and don't want to separate from him....

I have a question, has he done this before or is this the first time? If it's the first time, have a serious talk with him, find out where his head is at and then tell him this can never happen again and you'll forgive him this one single time. There is a possibility that he learns from his mistake and you have a happy life together.


If he's done this kind of thing before, however, I'm sorry to tell you that he can't be trusted.
I will try this. He is my one and only. I will never love again if I lose him.
 
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SASU-KE

Wizard
Nov 26, 2025
612
I will try this. He is my one and only. I will never love again if I lose him.
Make sure you don't act like he's forgiven easily. He needs to be a little afraid. Let him sweat a bit.

It's at the point where he thinks you're over it and you've forgiven him where he could slip up again. Assert yourself and be a little dominant with him.

As for your mother, I don't know what to say. No mother is supposed to do something like this.
 
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submarinedownsea

Brazilian so maybe english sucks
Sep 1, 2025
25
They dont deserve u, i would tell u to go on and make then pay for it but u dont seem this person and maybe its not worth it, so, dont forgive him. Nobody would like to spend the last minutes of theyr lifes w someone who dont give a fuck, make him sybau gurl u deserve to be precious and on top at least once in ur life.
 
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