Being full honest, it was terrible. Or maybe I speak of it so negatively because I did the attempt during my lowest. I used a parachord, attached on a concrete vent above the doorway of my apartment bathroom (see image). Very secure anchor. My hair was long, I grew it for 5 years, no haircut but it was on the way when I'm putting the noose around my neck so i had to cut it. I chugged down 330ml of 80 proof alcohol to get drunk because I know I'm gonna panic.
I stood on the stool, about 2 feet from the floor, put the noose around my neck and hopped off the stool. Sudden intense pressure around the neck, most notably upon the windpipe. I hang for a second or two not being able to breath. It got unbearably uncomfortable, panic sets in and in a state of pure adrenaline and survival insticts, I was able to grab onto the vent, pull my self up and free my neck from the noose. Exhausted and in pain, I laid on the bed planning to make another attempt in an hour. But I was so exhausted and drunk, slept the rest of the day and someone found me after receiving my scheduled emails.
Ligature marks are present, minor wound on hands from gripping the heck out of the rough concrete. Neck, windpipe still sore for around 5 days. Probably sprained my neck. Discomfort sometimes is felt even after few weeks. Upset that I failed an attempt and had to cut my hair short for it. Never went for check up after. Had to to go a mental institution because, now I'm still alive and even more traumatized. 3/10 experience.
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