my life will only get worse

[here_for_now]

i just don't want another failed attempt. I just wish i could fucking die already. I'm 20 and the last year i had hope for a better life was in 2023.

Before i became partially disabled, before i become a ridden with chronic pain, before i became a useless NEET not by choice, before i became i fucking waste of space.

I hate my life, i hate myself, i can't even afford any chronic pain relief. I'm a fucking loser.

I just want to fucking go back in time, and kill myself then. I hate my life, nothing will get better never ever never

 

[SanagiMezamete]

I empathize with you. It seems so very painful what you are going through. I won't pretend that I have any magic answers. I'm sorry life has made you feel this way and that you've already attempted. Wishing you the best.