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Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
How I wish I hadn't ruined my life.

How I wish I had gone to where I needed to go.

Now absolutely nothing in the world can help me.

I had a once in a lifetime opportunity and I blew it.

Now every moment of my waking existence, I wish for death.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,430
How did you ruin your life?
 
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gny

New Member
Apr 28, 2022
4
I know exactly how you feel.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,085
It sounds so unbearable being in that situation. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
748
Same story here.
 
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Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
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JamieJambo

Experienced
Apr 17, 2022
202
How I wish I hadn't ruined my life.

How I wish I had gone to where I needed to go.

Now absolutely nothing in the world can help me.

I had a once in a lifetime opportunity and I blew it.

Now every moment of my waking existence, I wish for death.
Mate I hear you
 
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anxious_depressive

I'm in despair
Dec 21, 2021
240
Hello.

I have exactly the same feeling.

It's so sad.😒
 
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Traksae

Member
Apr 29, 2022
5
I feel exactly the same way. I blew a once in a lifetime opportunity.
 
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Anxieyote

Anxieyote

Sobriety over everything else • 31 • Midwest
Mar 24, 2021
444
I had a once in a lifetime opportunity and I blew it.
I would try to refocus my anger towards the fact that the quality of our life is dictated by a few tiny windows of opportunity because no one has time to focus their energy towards the people who are already here.

In a just world, the avenues to success wouldn't be limited to just one moment of "strike while the iron's hot".

It is that way because our parents conceived us without considering the high possibility that our lives could go off the rails—and not considering how they would help us if it did. Our parents played God, and we are the ones who will suffer the consequences because of their lack of foresight.

It's unreasonable to expect that everyone will be able to identify the moment in their lives that were critical forks in the road either.
 
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texas_yellow_rose

Member
Apr 27, 2022
6
I feel you hun
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,059
A little too ambiguous for me. Where's the details? If you're just venting, that's fine. If you really want to know what others think about your situation, you need to share more than you have. What could it matter? You're going to do whatever you're going to do! Just my 2 cents.
 
Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
510
I understand how u feel. I did serious damage to my life and then trying to rebuild from all that loss is so depressing 😓 it can get better but u have to spiritually heal some in order to get over the crushing despair.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
Mine too. I'm sorry you're feeling like this.
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
798
I had a once in a lifetime opportunity and I blew it.

Now every moment of my waking existence, I wish for death.
My story too.
 
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