Scacie
She/Her
- Feb 24, 2023
- 243
My headspace and emotions are such a mess. I've technically set a date to CTB in 2.5months time but I dont even know if I can go through with it. I dont have enough supplies and I'm so scared of failure and its consequences. Yet I want nothing more than to leave this body for good. I dont recognize any part of this body or life and I spend most of my day dissociated or distracted. I desperately want to fall in love and be loved, yet I can't seem to get a lasting crush on anyone. I dont want to leave my friends and have yet to tell my closest friend about my intentions to go.
I just wish I can tune down all these thoughts and focus on a goal, and stop drifting through life...
I just wish I can tune down all these thoughts and focus on a goal, and stop drifting through life...
