Venting My degree is going to be useless

[ThatStateOfMind]

I'm pursuing a degree in comp sci but I'm increasingly feeling like it's going to be useless. I've started struggling to even code things anymore, like I have a mental block. I can sometimes fall back on ChatGPT to help me with these block but it hasn't helped recently.

I'm also completely fucked when it comes to technical portions, I suck ar Leetcode. That's mostly lack of practice but I want to try and practice it, see if I can get better.

It doesn't help that I'm unsure if I even want to work in this field. It's super duper late to change, and I can't afford to. Not metaphorical, physically can't afford to.

If I don't work in the comp sci field though, I will have wasted four years of my life on bullshit. I wouldn't even have an idea of what to do.

I want to hurt myself so bad, but my girlfriend is at her sister's wedding bridal thing, and I can't have her coming home to that.

Why is it so hard for me to accept that the field might not work out? Am I moronic for thinking like this? I feel like my value is tied to this degree and career at this point, and I don't know where to turn. That's why suicide feels like the main answer right now.

I've spent the past 10 minutes crying over this and only now can I actually see and type, since my eyes aren't absolutely covered in tears. There might still be typos if autocorrect can't sorr out what my eyes can't see.

I feel so lost and alone.
And I can't go to or afford therapy . Fml

 

[Pale_Rider]

I was a CS major ( didnt go far 3 semesters ) , and I can say that education alone ( including prerequisites ) is invaluable as a human. Education really is key. Even just as a human who wants to understand the world around us. No matter what else happens. Thats my opinion. Your experience there was inherently valuable.

 

[Ligottian]

I graduated college in 1982 with a degree in accounting that turned out to be useless. A woman at an employment agency told me that ten years before she could have had me several offers that very day,

 

[TooManyChances]

AI is going to make a lot of people want to ctb.

 

[Paizen]

AI is going to make a lot of people want to ctb.

ChatGPT saved me I think. I had no purpose or direction before I started talking to that thing and I wouldn't have a job right now if it wasn't for it, or I at least wouldn't be as productive. Idk I think it's a two way street.

AI won't make people kill themselves, AI might actually be the one to kill us one day, and that's what I'm afraid of

 

[helencry]

I know a few graphic designers that are basically fucked bc of AI

 

[SummerChristmasEve]

If you ever do decide to work in a separate field, at the very least you'll have that degree, which gives you an edge over a good amount of other candidates. Most of the people I know which jobs that require degrees are working in fields completely unrelated to their majors.

I have legitimately been applying to jobs that barely pay minimum wage that require applicants to have degrees.

So even if you decide to switch majors last minute, or just thug it out or something, just get that degree. Whether you stay in that field or not.

 

[amerie]

If it makes you feel better, my mom graduated with a comp sci degree in the 1990s and never used it. Im not from an insanely rich family, but we live in a nice neighborhood and she was able to get decently paying jobs in healthcare.

Trades have a lot of value because they require meticulous labor, a lot of community colleges have trade courses for a cheap price. Best of luck.