My anxiety reduced significantly which kills the urge to prepare for ctb

[monolog]

But I am still focused I got more luck with obtaining components for SN than many people here
It's interesteting how some anxiety reducing medication can give you illusion that death is not preferable

 

[persuasion]

What medication is it? I don't really care anymore, anything that makes being here more bearable until I can finally find the guts to end it is legit imho.