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Defective Personel
- Jan 20, 2023
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Well, with father's death, mother has become more-and-more focused on micromanagement. It's a little weird she's more focused on this when she has more things to do herself, but I guess she gotta find a way to feel like she has some control because things are definitely on a downward direction & she got no say in at, as our lives and this whole world. That's just how it is.
Just wanted to say that, atleast outside of strictly barking commands when she's in the mood to micromanage things for a short time, she's less angry. Just too tired to be angry at me for being subhuman, so I get to see that she does care abt me not literally being homeless.
But in the end it's too late now, I'm past the point of wanting to stay alive just for anyone's sake. Staying alive just to be hatted for not being successful, for not giving her grand kids, etc etc. That's how it is. Cares when I'll die, & hates when I'm not lifting the world up.
Still, atleast she's less angry, tho it doesn't really actually help me now does it? I'm too hopeless.
Just wanted to say that, atleast outside of strictly barking commands when she's in the mood to micromanage things for a short time, she's less angry. Just too tired to be angry at me for being subhuman, so I get to see that she does care abt me not literally being homeless.
But in the end it's too late now, I'm past the point of wanting to stay alive just for anyone's sake. Staying alive just to be hatted for not being successful, for not giving her grand kids, etc etc. That's how it is. Cares when I'll die, & hates when I'm not lifting the world up.
Still, atleast she's less angry, tho it doesn't really actually help me now does it? I'm too hopeless.
