I attempted suicide and the first thing I hear on the phone from my mum is her complaining about how it will cost her money to take a taxi to the hospital, and she's asking me how she's meant to afford that. Safe to say I told her not to come.
I had an online friend I thought i could confide in about it as she'd been through similar but she said she didn't want to hear it after not too long.
My only real friend I had has just ghosted me since I told them.
People like to guilt trip you with suicide all about how hard it'd be on people around you but clearly in my case nobody would miss me. I'm pretty sure all my mum would care about is the funeral costs.
But that's not a bad thing honestly. My only regret is that I don't have a garunteed way to kill myself.
I just wish I had a physical illness instead. Something terminal.
People would show me pity instead of disgust, and I wouldn't have to go on.
It's sad to me so many people with lovely lives have stuff like cancer and I am perfectly healthy with nothing to live for.
I had an online friend I thought i could confide in about it as she'd been through similar but she said she didn't want to hear it after not too long.
My only real friend I had has just ghosted me since I told them.
People like to guilt trip you with suicide all about how hard it'd be on people around you but clearly in my case nobody would miss me. I'm pretty sure all my mum would care about is the funeral costs.
But that's not a bad thing honestly. My only regret is that I don't have a garunteed way to kill myself.
I just wish I had a physical illness instead. Something terminal.
People would show me pity instead of disgust, and I wouldn't have to go on.
It's sad to me so many people with lovely lives have stuff like cancer and I am perfectly healthy with nothing to live for.
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