Mental ill please read

[monkeybone]

Hey guys something happened to me. Somebody did something to me and nobody believed me and i been feeling sick and i been unfunctional for the past years i knew/know how i feel i just wanted to die in peace but my dad wants to kick me out of the house now im not living in the US right now i obviously dont feel healthy enough to get a job i obviously most likely go homeless if i was kicked out i feel multiple health issues mentally and physical i was diagnosed with some type of schizophrenia years ago there are different types and my dad obviously is tired of me my mom too i just dont bother anyone i stay in my room im 26 years old its not like they have to carry me to the bathroom i can shower i can watch movies i can eat by myself i can go to the bathroom i can do these functions by myself i suspect i have diabetes and maybe something else which i dont wanna be very specific about. My eyes are sore everyday or almost everyday and if i eat sugar i wake up with bad arrytmias feels like a chest/heart discomfort because i tried killing myself drinking soda yes soda! It might sound stupid but thats what happens when u dont have balls to hang yourself i just wanna know if i was to go to the US because i got kicked out of my house would i get some financial aid or some type of help from the goverment? until i die in peace or will i just go to another country to be fucking homeless? im a US citizen btw and im in the bridge of thinking what to do i think about maybe killing myself here in my room since im such a burden to my parents or should i just say fuck them and try and go live on my own thinking the gov will help me financially i also have siblings where i would go but ofc they're young i cant rely on their financial help sometimes i feel like that girl lacey fletcher i would like to get anyones advice here i just want the options thats not the worst for me. Please id appreciate it alot

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Hey guys something happened to me. Somebody did something to me and nobody believed me and i been feeling sick and i been unfunctional for the past years i knew/know how i feel i just wanted to die in peace but my dad wants to kick me out of the house now im not living in the US right now i obviously dont feel healthy enough to get a job i obviously most likely go homeless if i was kicked out i feel multiple health issues mentally and physical i was diagnosed with some type of schizophrenia years ago there are different types and my dad obviously is tired of me my mom too i just dont bother anyone i stay in my room im 26 years old its not like they have to carry me to the bathroom i can shower i can watch movies i can eat by myself i can go to the bathroom i can do these functions by myself i suspect i have diabetes and maybe something else which i dont wanna be very specific about. My eyes are sore everyday or almost everyday and if i eat sugar i wake up with bad arrytmias feels like a chest/heart discomfort because i tried killing myself drinking soda yes soda! It might sound stupid but thats what happens when u dont have balls to hang yourself i just wanna know if i was to go to the US because i got kicked out of my house would i get some financial aid or some type of help from the goverment? until i die in peace or will i just go to another country to be fucking homeless? im a US citizen btw and im in the bridge of thinking what to do i think about maybe killing myself here in my room since im such a burden to my parents or should i just say fuck them and try and go live on my own thinking the gov will help me financially i also have siblings where i would go but ofc they're young i cant rely on their financial help sometimes i feel like that girl lacey fletcher i would like to get anyones advice here i just want the options thats not the worst for me. Please id appreciate it alot

I know exactly what you're talking about when you mention Lacey Fletcher. I urge you to get whatever public assistance you can and maintain some kind of recovery. Give yourself that chance first.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

No clue, not from the US. BUMP.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

If you're in the United States and you don't have any income, you can get on state Medicaid. If you can get a doctor to prove that you have physical/mental disabilities which makes getting or sustaining a job difficult, you can get on disability and find some sort of low-income housing. It's not the best way to live, but it is an option. There's also the option of becoming a student at a university, where financial aid, scholarships, and loans should pay for boarding but you'll have to dedicate yourself to studying, and it can be quite stressful. If you can get on health insurance, I'd focus on finding a therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist and, as @SchizoGymnast said, try recovery. I may be unfairly extrapolating from your words, but it doesn't seem as if you're ready to go yet, you're in a situation which is out of your control and some part of you thinks ending it all might be a way to escape it. There are other options.