Describe your state of mind or what's happening with you currently... What's the mind process behind such a high number of messages? Why did you "stuck" here? I don't mean it in an offensive way, I'm just really curious
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"Ultra Based Gigachad"
- Aug 8, 2022
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You'll get their attention a lot faster by tagging them, there are quite few:
Damn, yeah, my question isn't that valid, should have asked about >2k or something. I thought there're more of them. And I don't want to bother anyone directly by taggingMy suicidality from joining to October 2024 got increasingly more acute and concrete. Last October I almost killed myself with my ordered SN. The aftermath was pretty rough. I had a nightmare stay in an acute suicidality clinic. I never want to be there again. And it was rough to see which impact this had on my family. So I decided to give up on logterm prospects and to live in the present as good as possible. This decreased my suicidality. But I think running away from my problems forever is impossible though...the impact on my family is my main reason not to do it and the fear to be in an even worse position if I survive...
I still enjoy to post here though...I'm stuck here waiting for my Dad to go first. I think my suicide would likely devastate him. Sasu gives me so much. A sense of community and comfort. I feel less alone. It's also the only place I feel I can be honest. If I revealed this stuff in real life- people would worry about me. Which sounds like a privelaged place to be but- they would worry without being able to help. Then- I would worry about what I just inflicted on them. So- Sasu is a big part of how I'm able to function day to day while I'm stuck in this shit hole.
Cauliflour
The masochist who doodles.
- Mar 24, 2025
- 637
MyLifeisHell
It hurts
- Jul 23, 2022
- 4,757
It blows my mind I have almost 5,000 posts on a suicide forum. In more than one sense
Pluto
Cat Extremist
- Dec 27, 2020
- 6,270
