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whybother2002

you with the sad eyes
Oct 14, 2025
169
I feel like I'm losing what I used to be. The things I like, the things I've said... I'm losing it and becoming another being. This is so sad. I had a bit of a life and I lost everything. I'm now a zombie. Someone kill me please.
 
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justanotherfailure

justanotherfailure

Member
Aug 7, 2025
57
You are still a person, you are never too far gone. I hope you find someone who can remind you that you are unique and loved. It's okay to change, but you will always be yourself
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
410
What you're describing sounds like depersonalization. Depersonalization / dissociation is painful to live with, although usually it's a symptom of something and not you literally losing yourself. I hope you can find relief because it sucks to deal with and I sympathize.
 
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sephlove

Member
Nov 22, 2020
85
I feel that.
I feel dead inside. I don't even know who I am anymore. I feel like I have no personality, nothing of my own.
 
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Nightfoot

Mage
Aug 7, 2025
549
I feel like depression has stolen the best parts of me, almost turning me into someone else, completely.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,224
I'm also a zombie. I can remember it. Most people would consider me to be the funny one in the group. Now I'm say nothing. Nothing is funny. Don't listen to music. Read. Watch tv. Nothing.
 
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mourningyesterday

mourningyesterday

Member
Apr 30, 2025
49
same here i used to be quick and witty and being the one to make everybody laugh, had so many passions and things i loved and now im nothing , just a brain fogged quiet shell of a human
 
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