Venting Lonely day, every day

[wishiwasalittlecool]

I hate being lonely.
I hate not talking to anyone.
I hate having a bubble forced on me by society.
I hate having a close friend who has leaked everything I've told them.
I hate seeing others having fun with their friends.
I hate seeing people outside being happy.
I hate them because I hate how I can't have what they have.
I hate how the circumstances of my life led to them being there and me being here.
When I die, I hope to have fun with my grandma in heaven.
When I die, I hope I won't be lonely anymore.
When I die, I don't want to hug my body pillow and cry into it as I fall asleep as if he's the only person in my life.
When I die, I hope to feel well rested.
When I die, I don't want to be lonely.

 

[soul2realm]

I am so sorry for the pain you are in.

 

[cursedlife]

schizophrenia made me lonely because of negative symptoms, so I can understand the feeling of loneliness , these day I just want to die to get some rest , mental illness ruined my life , I'm sorry you're going through this it must be torture

 

[deny_conformity]

I hate being lonely.
I hate not talking to anyone.
I hate having a bubble forced on me by society.
I hate having a close friend who has leaked everything I've told them.
I hate seeing others having fun with their friends.
I hate seeing people outside being happy.
I hate them because I hate how I can't have what they have.
I hate how the circumstances of my life led to them being there and me being here.
When I die, I hope to have fun with my grandma in heaven.
When I die, I hope I won't be lonely anymore.
When I die, I don't want to hug my body pillow and cry into it as I fall asleep as if he's the only person in my life.
When I die, I hope to feel well rested.
When I die, I don't want to be lonely.

I think we always see a front that people put up. I lot of people feel alone but they mask it so well that we don't know. We have a loneliness epidemic (or is it a pandemic?) and it's driven a lot be the way society portrays things. I think I see the symptoms in others when I people watch in coffee shops and on the train. I just find myself unable to approach people because of my own insecurities.

So everyone is alone and craving human contact but we're too insecure to let others know.