NPCaesar
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- Jun 15, 2023
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Hey guys, i rly don't know where else to post this, so Ill do it on this forum, because the people I met here were always super supporting and gave great advice.
My entire life I feared being lonely, its up to this day my biggest fear, and I honestly think that it has never been worse then now. I graduated from school this summer and am now waiting for my first Semester at College to begin, Iam really looking forward to it, and on paper my life seems to be going well. But to be frank, I just feel super lonely at the moment.
All my friends from school rarely wanna meet up irl and just stay at home and talk via call, which is fucking sad. Our clique in school was never this stereotypical nerdy bunch of Pc freaks, who never saw the light of day, we were just regular guys, but this whole ordeal makes me feel like all of my friends, including me, are the biggest bunch of losers. I see all of these people in my age, going out, partying, making all these memories I dont make, while I just sit at home and rot away doing nothing. This shit just drags me down so much. I spent so long getting out of this hole of depression in the recent years, all on my own, without much outside support and I dont want to go back down. But it feels like, that this situation leads me directly back into this downward spiral.
I told my father about how I feel, and he said that he understands my woes 100% and that he agrees that Iam in very shitty situation rn. He says that I need to hold out and that it will be better again, once I start going to college, where I will meet more outgoing types of people. And I honestly hope that hes right. Otherwise idk what to do...
Thx for reading this, I just felt like I had to vent that somewhere
My entire life I feared being lonely, its up to this day my biggest fear, and I honestly think that it has never been worse then now. I graduated from school this summer and am now waiting for my first Semester at College to begin, Iam really looking forward to it, and on paper my life seems to be going well. But to be frank, I just feel super lonely at the moment.
All my friends from school rarely wanna meet up irl and just stay at home and talk via call, which is fucking sad. Our clique in school was never this stereotypical nerdy bunch of Pc freaks, who never saw the light of day, we were just regular guys, but this whole ordeal makes me feel like all of my friends, including me, are the biggest bunch of losers. I see all of these people in my age, going out, partying, making all these memories I dont make, while I just sit at home and rot away doing nothing. This shit just drags me down so much. I spent so long getting out of this hole of depression in the recent years, all on my own, without much outside support and I dont want to go back down. But it feels like, that this situation leads me directly back into this downward spiral.
I told my father about how I feel, and he said that he understands my woes 100% and that he agrees that Iam in very shitty situation rn. He says that I need to hold out and that it will be better again, once I start going to college, where I will meet more outgoing types of people. And I honestly hope that hes right. Otherwise idk what to do...
Thx for reading this, I just felt like I had to vent that somewhere
