Venting Living with anxiety

[Griever]

Anxiety is a silent storm. It doesn't scream - it whispers in your ear when everything is quiet, convincing you that something is wrong even when nothing is. It's waking up tired because your mind never slept. It's overthinking every word you said, every glance you received, every decision you made.

It feels like drowning in a sea where the waves are invisible, and no one else can see you struggling. You laugh in public, but inside you're gasping for air. You want to talk about it, but the fear of being misunderstood builds another wall. So you stay quiet. You smile. And you ache.

Anxiety doesn't always look like panic attacks. Sometimes, it's the absence of joy, the avoidance of people, the constant guilt over things you can't control. It's the weight in your chest that no one else notices. And some days, just getting through the day feels like a war you barely survived.

 

[DivineSpark]

When I have anxiety episode, when I experience intense anxiety. My pulse rate goes up, I start sweating. I become paranoid. Searching for cameras in my apartment. I want to isolate myself.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I just view every human as a threat. No biggie.

 

[22yearsbroken]

My anxiety can be crippling i refuse to go to places.. where i have no direct escape route i dont drive well i do but only rent a car as needed its only then i will visit my partners family as it big family small house it scares me not being able to leave .. as if i have no control and then that makes it twn times worse .. so avoid any place indoors with more than 5 people ..i know what you mean about that whisper ..it just sits on your shoulder sort of poking you with a stick until you feel like your going to implode but it translates to im going to explode and destrpy anything that stands in my way just to get out of here ASAP..

 

[c.c]

When i get anxiety attacks, i get super paranoid and start locking every single door and window and start seeing eyes of every male person in my life regardless of the age and their role or position in my life and hear voices of my molester reminding me that everyone will leave and those who will stay will only pretend to care and will get hurt by me and slowing start feeling dizzy and then i hear lustful things about me and i get scared of collapsing so i bite my hand very hard( till turn purple) and starts searching for blade and cut myself ..only after cutting myself the anxiety goes away a bit and i sob

 

[BRAINWORMS]

Anxiety/OCD are my main reasons for wanting to leave. People without clinically significant levels of anxiety think they understand, but it's actually a nightmare. Having to move about the world while being internally frozen in fear is excruciating, like bending your joints the wrong way every moment just to get through the day. Big hugs to all posting or lurking in this thread who can relate.

 

[777cave]

My anxiety is through the roof. I feel raw and exposed, like my nerves are on display. Like I have electricity running through me. My heart rate is erratic. I feel like I want to run until I collapse. But I can't out run what I feel.

 

[knickknack81]

Definitely having crazy anxiety these days. For both stress from a relationship that just ended and things not going well financially (which have lead to thoughts/plans of CTB). I get that crazy stomach in knots feeling that lingers on and off through the day. Plus I have real trouble sleeping. I find myself walking up after only 3 maybe 4 hours of sleep, thinking about how bad things are and not being able to fall back. Which then makes me feel terrible for the rest of the day. It absolutely horrible.

 

[divinemistress36]

Anxiety is the devil! Ill take the depression over the anxiety

 

[AnxiousLife]

Anxiety has been with me my whole life. I hate it

 

[Roadrunner]

Anxiety is the devil! Ill take the depression over the anxiety

For me the anxiety episodes come and go relatively quickly, and I can calm them with medication. my depression can go on for months and be very painful. So I'm the other way around.