Living in my tomb

[argieb]

I live in a tiny house (117 sqft). I have a wood burning stove inside as my only source of heat. As soon as it gets colder I'm going to heavily sedate myself, start a fire, throw in coal for good measure and hopefully die while falling asleep due to CO2 poisoning. The best part to me is that it will most likely look like an accident. The weirdest part is living in what was my dream home, knowing I'm going to die here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[argieb]

I live in a tiny house (117 sqft). I have a wood burning stove inside as my only source of heat. As soon as it gets colder I'm going to heavily sedate myself, start a fire, throw in coal for good measure and hopefully die while falling asleep due to CO2 poisoning. The best part to me is that it will most likely look like an accident. The weirdest part is living in what was my dream home, knowing I'm going to die here.

3 of my closest friends called me earlier. They're worried. I just kept saying that I'll be fine. They pointed out my avoidance, my mood. Idk being honest seems worse than telling the truth. "I know you guys think I'm sad but I'm actually plotting dates of when I want die". Idk. That seems bad. And I'm being a shitty friend. They tried to pick me up for dinner and I lied to get out it. Even sad, I haven't eaten in three days and would've appreciated the meal but I don't remember the last time I showered and I don't have clean clothes. I can't let them see me like this. I know they care about me but I don't care about myself anymore. I don't have the energy to care. I don't want to write a suicide note but I love them so much and I'm sorry.