Literally dreaming about dying

[painoflife]

The only thing that has been holding me back from CTB is the thought of how people left behind would cope, especially being a carer.
The thoughts are very strong and overwhelming and only seem to be getting moreso.
Last night I literally had a dream where I killed myself, like I could see the tablets I was taking and it was so vivid. It was strange to wake up from it and it felt so real.
I am wondering whether this is my minds way of telling me it's time?

 

[JimFord99]

Some people can sense their end. However, your dream could be the result of you determination to die. Dreams question the days activities and not necessarily predict the future. Bare in mind, I say not necessarily, it is not impossibly in my opinion that a dream is sort of a time warp, a glimpse into the future.