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cowboypants

cowboypants

From milkyway
May 7, 2024
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I'm not sure if I made a post with the same title excuse me.

I wake up everyday do my chores, eat, play games on phone, maybe go outside rarely, watch something, sleep. It's boring and purposeless.

I don't have the strength in me to do this for a long time. Going outside increases my anxiety. Heck I'm so conscious by the way I walk and look. I feel like I'm operating a robot sometimes with precision to each muscles. It's tiring putting up that show to only get ridiculed by your peers.

I should have ended my life in college time. I would have been free from this pain.
And I hate dealing with people if I have to communicate. I feel so weak. I don't feel taken seriously. Most of it feels irrelevant to me and everything feels like a fight like a fight for survival in a way
 
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