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SchizoGymnast

SchizoGymnast

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May 28, 2024
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Well, today, Valentine's Day, marks five years since my last psychiatric hospitalization. But oddly enough it was not for suicide. It was for homicidal ideation actually. Got fired from a job and didn't handle it very well. 🙄 I never thought five years later I would be in this (positive) place but here I am. It's hard to believe it's the same person I have come so far. My goal is to never be admitted to a psych hospital ever again. Here's to another year of crushing it.
 
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Good job! I hope everything keeps getting better for you!
 
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did you admit yourself when you were having these feelings, or was it someone else? if you admitted yourself, you did a very good thing to protect others, and im proud of you
 
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did you admit yourself when you were having these feelings, or was it someone else? if you admitted yourself, you did a very good thing to protect others, and im proud of you
I was in a cafe when I got the call that I was fired. I stewed for hours getting angrier and gorier until I realized I was getting fatigued and these feelings weren't going away. I actually got to the planning stage of things and I was enjoying it a little too much. I ended up calling my state crisis hotline and a social worker came to my house. We talked it over with the on call supervisor and we mutually agreed that I should go to the ER. So I did.
 
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I was in a cafe when I got the call that I was fired. I stewed for hours getting angrier and gorier until I realized I was getting fatigued and these feelings weren't going away. I actually got to the planning stage of things and I was enjoying it a little too much. I ended up calling my state crisis hotline and a social worker came to my house. We talked it over with the on call supervisor and we mutually agreed that I should go to the ER. So I did.
you handled this situation as best as you possibly could have. despite those scary feelings and intentions, you ultimately chose good. reading this makes me feel happy for you
 
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Well, today, Valentine's Day, marks five years since my last psychiatric hospitalization. But oddly enough it was not for suicide. It was for homicidal ideation actually. Got fired from a job and didn't handle it very well. 🙄 I never thought five years later I would be in this (positive) place but here I am. It's hard to believe it's the same person I have come so far. My goal is to never be admitted to a psych hospital ever again. Here's to another year of crushing it.

I hope everything goes well from now on for you!
 
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you handled this situation as best as you possibly could have. despite those scary feelings and intentions, you ultimately chose good. reading this makes me feel happy for you
I appreciate that! I don't tell a lot of people that story because it, understandably, makes people concerned that I'm a risk for violence when I'm not. I feel guilty biting the heads off of gummy bears. At the same time, telling stories like this, I hope, would take away the stigma and encourage people in my situation to seek emergency services rather than continue to stew until the unthinkable happens.

Sometimes I miss the hospital though. But if I MUST go again, I will make sure it's for trying to kill myself, like a normal person.
 
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I appreciate that! I don't tell a lot of people that story because it, understandably, makes people concerned that I'm a risk for violence when I'm not. I feel guilty biting the heads off of gummy bears. At the same time, telling stories like this, I hope, would take away the stigma and encourage people in my situation to seek emergency services rather than continue to stew until the unthinkable happens.

Sometimes I miss the hospital though. But if I MUST go again, I will make sure it's for trying to kill myself, like a normal person.
topics like this are always concerning, but what you chose (rightly) to do about it says more about you than what you began to feel
 
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january for me. i unfortunately have a long history of inpatient stays. it's been a month since then though and i'm controlling myself to stay out. i don't think i could manage a place like that right now, with so many people, medications, etc.
 
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May 28, 2024
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january for me. i unfortunately have a long history of inpatient stays. it's been a month since then though and i'm controlling myself to stay out. i don't think i could manage a place like that right now, with so many people, medications, etc.
If I had any money at all, I would start home health for psych patients.
 
The_Hunter

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Congrats, friend :) Glad you are well nowadays. You seem like a swell person and I wish you all the best in life. <3
 
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