Last day

[Bye_Bye]

Parents have invited me to dinner tomorrow, which is my ctb day. I think I can still work it okay, I've told them I can't eat because I'm dieting.

I think they would get concerned if I completely avoid them, possibly show up at my flat. So I want to avoid that.

I do feel guilty that they will see me tomorrow, and by Monday morning will get the text I'm gone. Don't know if that will be more painful than me avoiding them.

 

[S1mpleme]

Whatever you do, but you cant avoid the pain. Yes, they won't be glad that you're gone, but this is the price you pay. It's up to you, but you can see them again for the last time.

 

[Ghost2211]

It might make them feel better their last memory of you was positive.

 

[Bye_Bye]

Yeah, hopefully I can put on a happy face.

Just feel sad that they will put together why I wasn't eating after the fact. Or just that it will be upsetting that it was a day they saw me.

But no day is going to be perfect and I have made my mind up. I just want to make it easier on them if I can.

 

[WhiskeyLulabuy]

Though call they pick up something on your body language

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Yeah, hopefully I can put on a happy face.

Just feel sad that they will put together why I wasn't eating after the fact. Or just that it will be upsetting that it was a day they saw me.

But no day is going to be perfect and I have made my mind up. I just want to make it easier on them if I can.

It's unlikely that they will figure out why you didn't eat. It's not as if they can tell what's in your tummy once you're gone.

I think it's nice that you'll be seeing them in a positive way before you go. Hopefully that will make it easier for them, too.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Yeah, hopefully I can put on a happy face.

Good on you, but that's a lot of pressure. Don't worry if it doesn't all come together when it's happening.

 

[TAW122]

I would go, but also make sure you give yourself ample time to CTB and do your best not to give off any red flags or anything. Is there is a particular reason for not wishing to eat, such as food possibly interfering with your method of CTB?

 

[Bye_Bye]

I need to fast for the SN, they usually eat quite late so I would need to wait way into the night if I did eat.

I'm planning on just going earlier, try and have a nice time and leave with plenty of time to sort things out.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

You are so kind to try to make things easier for your parents. I hope you have peace in whatever you decide.

 

[WhiskeyLulabuy]

I don't think I could be strong enough to do that I plan on locking myself away a few days before hand.

 

[BPD Barbie]

It might be nice to spend one last day with them, after your ctb they will probably appreciate it so much.

 

[Soul]

You're very kind to think of their feelings. I hope it's a good visit, and that whatever you decide to do will go well for you. x

 

[Skyview]

Memories, it's all you leave behind plus something of yours which will be treasured , it's going to be tough on your parents and I commend you for spending time with your folks .
When the time comes to depart this world I hope your passing is peaceful

 

[jgm63]

If you went ahead then I hope you are now at peace and somewhere beautiful.....

 

[deadmalk]

I pray you found your peace and it was thoughtful of you if you saw your parents.