princeseadove
wannabe angel
- Mar 4, 2025
- 38
I have been busy with my exams. There is one more. Psychology. Ironic I think. It's easy, I should pass, but right after I'm not living.
Throughout my life there has been a lack of love, even now. I'm surrounded by people, but they don't love me. Someone wrongs me, and it's so easy to forgive them, because it's me. I'm always so difficult, hard to understand, hard to love. But when I wrong someone, it's a completely different story. People don't ask for me or care about me. I don't want anyone to mourn me. I want people to understand and be kinder to people like me. It's too late for me though. Friday will be my last Friday. And I'll indulge in all of my wants. In sweet treats, cutting, burning, sleeping, watching movies. The coming next week I'll spend the whole time trting to kill myself. Because no matter what, next Friday will not come.
I'll be indulging into my delusions too, because I do believe that. Once I die I'll be in a better place. Theyll be a whole new world waiting for me, where the people are kinder, where there is understanding, fairness, and everything's enoigh. I'll be going into that dream. Where I'll be recognized. That's the plan God has set for me.
Throughout my life there has been a lack of love, even now. I'm surrounded by people, but they don't love me. Someone wrongs me, and it's so easy to forgive them, because it's me. I'm always so difficult, hard to understand, hard to love. But when I wrong someone, it's a completely different story. People don't ask for me or care about me. I don't want anyone to mourn me. I want people to understand and be kinder to people like me. It's too late for me though. Friday will be my last Friday. And I'll indulge in all of my wants. In sweet treats, cutting, burning, sleeping, watching movies. The coming next week I'll spend the whole time trting to kill myself. Because no matter what, next Friday will not come.
I'll be indulging into my delusions too, because I do believe that. Once I die I'll be in a better place. Theyll be a whole new world waiting for me, where the people are kinder, where there is understanding, fairness, and everything's enoigh. I'll be going into that dream. Where I'll be recognized. That's the plan God has set for me.
