Venting Killing yourself when you still live at home.

[generalhuxxsmother]

What do people even do after they find a dead person in their home? Or maybe I'm over thinking it. People die at home all the time. What's the alternative? Kill myself elsewhere and traumatise a random person? It feels like there is no way to commit suicide without it having horrific outcomes for those around you. I want to block off my door and leave a note saying not to come in, that should work.

I imagine returning to a house we found a hung family member in. I can't decide if I'd be sick, feeling the new emptiness, or angry. I think my family will be too angry.

I will make it as best for them as possible.

 

[volo]

Yes, you are overthinking it. It's nice of you to consider others, but you gotta do what you gotta do- that's the bottom line.

 

[gardenoflonely]

Yeah there's just nothing you can do about that part. At home your family finds you and is traumatized. At a hotel a housekeeper or emergency responder is traumatized. If it's out in the woods or something, a random stranger will at some point stumble across you and be traumatized. It's the hard truth, nobody finds a body and just doesnt care. You might be overthinking it a little bit, there's no way to get around how hard it might be for someone to find someone like that (think about if you had to). Even outside out of the topic of suicide though, dying a natural death..someone would still have to find your body. That's why I say you're overthinking a bit, because that's a part of life regardless

 

[BlueMist96]

Are they aware that you're struggling? If not, it might be a good idea to at least let them know, that way it won't come as a complete shock.

In my case, my parents already found the first rope I ordered. They had short a talk with me, but I made it clear I wasn't going to accept any help. They know that sending me away to a mental hospital would do more harm than good, so we're kind've just stuck in limbo right now. They've been doing their best to offer support, but I think they know I've made up my mind.

I'll try my best to find a location outdoors, but if I can't, I'm pretty comfortable doing it at home. I'll make it as clean as possible, and make sure they know what's happened before they can see me.