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Kassender

Kassender

Experienced
Aug 29, 2018
263
Starting out pretty ok until everything comes crashing down in an hour or so.

Love it.

Im in the lockdown with my parents and start to feel really feverish.
Tired.
So does my mom and i cant help but feeling i brought the virus from somewhere. Even though ive pretty much been on lockdown since january, so not a chance. But i still feel like shit.

I send more resumes since im unemployed, and realize i forgot to update the resume file since im now working on my laptop.
Rookie mistake. Which i have made for the past 3 week, so i guess ive fucked myself for something like 15 applications.
15 different companies.

I thought my parents were outside, so i allow myself to just lose it for a second.
No, of course my mom was right behind the door.

When i tell her what happens, shes like 'oh come on, it's ok'

Yeah,no.
Ive been doing shit like that for 31 years, it's not gonna be ok...

And then i learn that a friend i thought i was close with has to cancel his wedding.
Which was scheduled in May.

I had no idea he was getting married.

Im pretty sure i just didnt cross his mind.


Im tired.
Let the covid 19 end me, for the love of god, i can feel myself going insane.

How was your day ?
 
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FreedomInDeath

FreedomInDeath

Ready to leave
Jan 6, 2020
147
Feeling lonely and unsafe. Anxiety high. I have no friends either, from being a recluse due to severe anxiety. Hoping the day gets better for us, or at least not worse. Take care.
 
Overnoutofhere

Overnoutofhere

Member
Mar 30, 2020
52
Lonely, depressed, full of pain and grief for my dead husband. Wishing I could CTB and find him or just end this miserable, pointless existence.. hope your day gets better.
 
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Kassender

Kassender

Experienced
Aug 29, 2018
263
Feeling lonely and unsafe. Anxiety high. I have no friends either, from being a recluse due to severe anxiety. Hoping the day gets better for us, or at least not worse. Take care.

Sorry youre also feeling bad.
I hope things get better for you too
 
LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
Missing my dead husband soooo much. I cannot stand it. And this new med I'm on is making me crazy. I hope we can all find some peace.
So a REALLY tough day.
 

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