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First loss

First loss

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Jan 28, 2019
393
I love the comforting realization that I will die soon. I really like it. I don't stress about failing in academics anymore. I don't stress about anything. I'm counting on death. I can't wait to go trough with this. I feel so relaxed and happy. I have done writing my suicide notes and I will need to tweak them a bit.

I have a few regrets though.

I'm sorry I won't watch my little brother grow up. It's what makes me the saddest.
I'm sorry I won't be able to do things I enjoy anymore, like listen to metal.
I'm sorry for not even having my first kiss.

I'm really sorry that things are this way, but it's for the best. I wanted a nice life and this world and life fucked me off. Now i'll fuck life off.
 
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JoeFailure

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Apr 29, 2019
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This isn't a "pro-life" message...just wanted to ask since you mentioned academics...you sound like you're pretty young. There's a lot of things you can do even if you don't succeed in school and have a great life. Only reason I say that is a lot of younger people don't see that there's a whole world out there after school whether it's high school or college and that you can do pretty much whatever you want to do.

Just throwing it out there. You seem like a good person with the top of your regret list being a little bro. I'm sure you've gone over everything a thousand times but and it looks like you've been on the board for a while but just wanted to throw it out there.

But if you are going through with it, good luck and I wish you peace.
 
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ExitTheDay

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May 26, 2019
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I'm sorry this world poisons you just as much it does me, First Loss... I'm glad you can fine tranquility is things that most people stress over, that's what makes you unique, because you're not like the rest of this fucked up world, I wish you the best
 
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First loss

First loss

Specialist
Jan 28, 2019
393
This isn't a "pro-life" message...just wanted to ask since you mentioned academics...you sound like you're pretty young. There's a lot of things you can do even if you don't succeed in school and have a great life. Only reason I say that is a lot of younger people don't see that there's a whole world out there after school whether it's high school or college and that you can do pretty much whatever you want to do.

Just throwing it out there. You seem like a good person with the top of your regret list being a little bro. I'm sure you've gone over everything a thousand times but and it looks like you've been on the board for a while but just wanted to throw it out there.

But if you are going through with it, good luck and I wish you peace.
I know. I know. But either way my fucked up looks and overall stupidity will never lead me to a good, fun and interesting life. I will think things over once or twice more, but at this point I am 80% sure I will go trough with it.

I'm sorry this world poisons you just as much it does me, First Loss... I'm glad you can fine tranquility is things that most people stress over, that's what makes you unique, because you're not like the rest of this fucked up world, I wish you the best
Thank you. I return the wishes. I hope I will find peace.
 
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ExitTheDay

We fight to live or live to die
May 26, 2019
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I know. I know. But either way my fucked up looks and overall stupidity will never lead me to a good, fun and interesting life. I will think things over once or twice more, but at this point I am 80% sure I will go trough with it.


Thank you. I return the wishes. I hope I will find peace.
Thank you
 
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