inkmage333
please just free me and let me die
- Feb 18, 2025
- 133
I've suffered from chronic boredom for years on end now. I've tried explaining to people that trying new things simply hasn't worked on my end, and no one listens. All they do is suggest new hobbies...which I did try. None of them did anything for me. Rock climbing, cooking, travelling...I've tried too many things, and none of them gave me the enjoyment or want to live.
Interestingly, the only thing that interested me was throwing myself off a cliff at a national park I went to over the weekend. I didn't do it, obviously, but I just wanted to do it. Not even because I was suicidal at the moment, but simply because I was bored. I only feel alive when I feel fear. It's a really bad way to live, but it's just how it is for me. I don't want to do more dangerous things though, which is why I want to end it all eventually.
Interestingly, the only thing that interested me was throwing myself off a cliff at a national park I went to over the weekend. I didn't do it, obviously, but I just wanted to do it. Not even because I was suicidal at the moment, but simply because I was bored. I only feel alive when I feel fear. It's a really bad way to live, but it's just how it is for me. I don't want to do more dangerous things though, which is why I want to end it all eventually.
