Help Jumping - just need to bypass SI

[uselessmanz]

I've been trying to CTB for about two years now.

I have perfected a method that will get me to a location at least 160 feet above ground on a balcony with a fall straight onto concrete provided that I make a small leap from the railing. I hit my weed pen like 7 times to overcome SI but diddnt work. The time before that I used lorazepam but that diddnt work either as I just fell asleep.

The next time I can access that location is in 3-4 weeks, i think alcohol is the next move for me.

Thoughts?
Basically anything that makes me go unconscious even for a second so I can fall backwards. Helium? Anisthesia? Idk

 

[uselessmanz]

I have now decided I need to get this done a lot quicker than 3 weeks. My family is imploding and I will personally implode soon. Once that happens, my anger will cause massive pain to others and myself. Need to beat myself to that point via CTB off a balcony with alcohol beating my SI.

Wish me luck

 

[tasmaka]

Im really sorry for all you have been challenged with, and everything youve gone through with it.

You deserve happiness, don't blame yourself so much.

 

[ipmanwc0]

i feel like overcoming SI is best done impulsively, with little thought given to what you're about to do, a spur of the moment thing without strategizing