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apatheticallyalive
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- Aug 16, 2023
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Hey there. Been lurking here for ages but feel the need to get some shit off my chest.
I feel as though life is rigged against me, as well as most other people in my generation. (I'm barely a gen z, but I identify a lot with millennials as well)
I supposedly did almost everything right. Went to college, got a degree. Graduated 2 years ago. Been applying to jobs left and right and have had virtually no luck. The only jobs I've been able to land are shitty, manual labor (nothing to do with my major) that I eventually get burned out at and quit, look tirelessly for a different one, settle for another shit job, rinse and repeat. I currently am working at one such job, and it's a miracle I've been at it for a year. That's the longest I've had a full time job. But I'm only halfway through the year and I've already burned what little pto I had and most days I feel like I'd rather ctb then work there another damn day. I want to be done, I want to quit, but then what?
I am 26 years old and live with my parents. Sometimes they'll show me job prospects I could apply to instead cause they know I hate my job but I'm so. Fucking. Sick. Of. Trying. I've applied to hundreds of jobs over the course of these past two years. 99.99% of the time, no response. Ghosted. Even for a lot of shit manual labor jobs too. I'm exhausted. Frustrated. Burned out. Hopeless, powerless, sick of being alive.
I feel like I'm trapped in a world that's rigged against me. Despite saving relentlessly I'm nowhere close to affording a down payment on a house, and I know I'd burn though what little savings I have fucking fast if I moved out to an apartment. The only reason I'm not homeless is because I have parents with a house that aren't assholes (most of the time). I admit I'm privileged in that regard.
I feel hopeless. The world is fucked up, merciless, corrupt and unjust. And yet, most people don't bat an eye. I don't get it. I don't want to work 30-40 more years until I'm too old and weak to enjoy what little life I have left, if that's even possible. Work, eat, sleep, repeat. For decades. I can't fathom it. And If that's really all there is I'd rather see myself out.
I feel as though life is rigged against me, as well as most other people in my generation. (I'm barely a gen z, but I identify a lot with millennials as well)
I supposedly did almost everything right. Went to college, got a degree. Graduated 2 years ago. Been applying to jobs left and right and have had virtually no luck. The only jobs I've been able to land are shitty, manual labor (nothing to do with my major) that I eventually get burned out at and quit, look tirelessly for a different one, settle for another shit job, rinse and repeat. I currently am working at one such job, and it's a miracle I've been at it for a year. That's the longest I've had a full time job. But I'm only halfway through the year and I've already burned what little pto I had and most days I feel like I'd rather ctb then work there another damn day. I want to be done, I want to quit, but then what?
I am 26 years old and live with my parents. Sometimes they'll show me job prospects I could apply to instead cause they know I hate my job but I'm so. Fucking. Sick. Of. Trying. I've applied to hundreds of jobs over the course of these past two years. 99.99% of the time, no response. Ghosted. Even for a lot of shit manual labor jobs too. I'm exhausted. Frustrated. Burned out. Hopeless, powerless, sick of being alive.
I feel like I'm trapped in a world that's rigged against me. Despite saving relentlessly I'm nowhere close to affording a down payment on a house, and I know I'd burn though what little savings I have fucking fast if I moved out to an apartment. The only reason I'm not homeless is because I have parents with a house that aren't assholes (most of the time). I admit I'm privileged in that regard.
I feel hopeless. The world is fucked up, merciless, corrupt and unjust. And yet, most people don't bat an eye. I don't get it. I don't want to work 30-40 more years until I'm too old and weak to enjoy what little life I have left, if that's even possible. Work, eat, sleep, repeat. For decades. I can't fathom it. And If that's really all there is I'd rather see myself out.