Ilostmytoast
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- May 18, 2024
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I'm sorry for the absence of my punctuation but hopefully you understand what I'm saying
So yesterday and today I was talking with my girlfriend and I realized I screwed every chance in my life to get better you see I don't have any friends irl mainly just online but even then the amount of friends online has dwindled I only have two people I talk to and that same girlfriend I had to break up with today I regret it but I needed to do it everything just stressed me out I couldn't see what was true and what wasn't my mind is going against me every time I feel happy
I'm screwing my chances of getting better day by day I had opportunities to make friends but me being anti social ruined it when I wanted to feel loved and love somebody back I ruined it by planting seeds in my head telling me they're just using me when they weren't, drawing turned into a living nightmare only to mock me that I failed to become an artist and spread my ideas out to the world I'm so utterly worthless but I've recently been looking at ways to officially end it I'm tired of waiting for better days that'll never come even if I don't lose hope Ik secretly hope will never guide me anywhere
So i ask this is a 3/4 inch wide rope able to succeed or does it have to be thicker?
In my mind it might have to be thicker but I'm unsure it's 20 feet btw so no need to worry on length
A partial hanging seems best for me given it seems to be quick at least with becoming unconscious and all
That's what I've read though so if I'm wrong please tell me that'd be much appreciated
So yesterday and today I was talking with my girlfriend and I realized I screwed every chance in my life to get better you see I don't have any friends irl mainly just online but even then the amount of friends online has dwindled I only have two people I talk to and that same girlfriend I had to break up with today I regret it but I needed to do it everything just stressed me out I couldn't see what was true and what wasn't my mind is going against me every time I feel happy
I'm screwing my chances of getting better day by day I had opportunities to make friends but me being anti social ruined it when I wanted to feel loved and love somebody back I ruined it by planting seeds in my head telling me they're just using me when they weren't, drawing turned into a living nightmare only to mock me that I failed to become an artist and spread my ideas out to the world I'm so utterly worthless but I've recently been looking at ways to officially end it I'm tired of waiting for better days that'll never come even if I don't lose hope Ik secretly hope will never guide me anywhere
So i ask this is a 3/4 inch wide rope able to succeed or does it have to be thicker?
In my mind it might have to be thicker but I'm unsure it's 20 feet btw so no need to worry on length
A partial hanging seems best for me given it seems to be quick at least with becoming unconscious and all
That's what I've read though so if I'm wrong please tell me that'd be much appreciated
