Venting I’ve officially failed at life

[attheend13]

I feel ridiculous for bothering to talk about this. I've failed at every single thing I've ever done. No one cares. No one should. I'm a useless piece of garbage. I'm sick of myself. I hate myself. I'm dying inside. If emotional pain could kill I'd be out of my misery. I feel like I'm about to explode and no drugs no alcohol and no amount of running away will fix it or me. I can't sleep, and I can never sleep anymore. It all hurts so much. I see a whole world outside of me and I am not welcome to join it. I hate myself so much I'm so embarrassed of my life. It's so empty.

 

[Baisley]

Sorry I are suffering so much. I can relate as I feel the same way and only want to exit this world but yet I am not smart enough to be able to do it.

 

[AltF4Mylife]

I can relate to you

 

[attheend13]

Sorry I are suffering so much. I can relate as I feel the same way and only want to exit this world but yet I am not smart enough to be able to do it.

I'm sorry you feel this way too. Life is just not worth the effort. There's no upside. I resent that I have to stay. Because if I exit I'm just a bad person who hurt their family

 

[BeyondSurvival]

I can relate.

 

[Vivissa]

I totally feel the same. I hate the concept of "humanity"; to me, it suggests that we humans are something beyond mere usefulness, but the truth is that we only matter according to how useful we are to ourselves and to others.
Death is freedom.

 

[itsgone2]

I completely failed too. Sucks to realize.
All the warnings were in front of me. I tried and found good information but didn't know how to use it. Complete failure. Sucks. Yes, death would be freedom.

 

[Terrible_Life]

I feel the same way and yes alcohol also won't help because later you'll just feel much worse. I see suicide as my only option to free myself from this circle of pain.

 

[continuating]

so have i, my academics have been dropping substantially lately and i have been called a failure....

 

[Thebolterliz]

I'm in the same spot right now. It helped me to try and prioritize people who actually want me to get better instead of the ones who just want me to get useful, a lot of the times it's just not that simple, but I'm doing the most with what I can

so have i, my academics have been dropping substantially lately and i have been called a failure....

 

[attheend13]

so have i, my academics have been dropping substantially lately and i have been called a failure....

You sound far too young to have failed at anything. But I know how it feels to be labeled that. It hurts.

 

[qwert3948]

feeling unwelcome by the world is such a specific feeling ive never been able to put into words

 

[AstralMadness]

can relate.. it really feels this way every single day

 

[ThisIsYam]

Honestly the worst part of being a "failure" is being forced to endure through it even when society makes it clear how unwanted you are. The moment you aren't considered useful, whether by failing to provide in a social or/and economic context you are immediately set aside from the population at large. Denied the (sadly) obligatory human need for socialization.

However, despite this clearly cutthroat way of treating fellow humans at large, as a means to an end and to be immediately discarded if they aren't fulfilling their roles the "duds" of society aren't even granted the mercy of being able to "opt-out". If one "fails" at life and they don't have the strength to go on they are expected to rot away slowly - To witness everything they held dear decay around them; whether it's their health, wealth, social bonds. You aren't granted the dignity to cut your losses short in a quick, painless manner. You must watch and suffer as your world crumbles around you.