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Thekla

Thekla

The Lord will take me home.
May 29, 2024
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I've officially decided to end my life, not today, but very soon. It's honestly liberating. Today was the straw that broke the camel's back. Someone that I highly respect (who I won't name) said that they hate the uneducated and "willfully ignorant" (me, because I'm too stupid for schooling), and it would better for us to all die. I agree with them.

I think I'll sell my things to my church soon and give goodbye letters to members of my congregation. They're the only ones who's ever been kind to me. I'm so excited. I hope I'm not too stupid to somehow mess it up, lol.

It's kinda fucked up, I feel so euphoric just thinking about it. I finally won't be a burden to my parents or the world anymore. I'll get to be free and with God forever. Does that make me weird? Probably. Oh well. Lol.
 
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anonymous1234554321

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Apr 25, 2025
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Hugs. Although I don't know you in person, I am still sure you are not a burden to the world, even if sometimes it unfortunately seems to you that it's otherwise. But of course the choice is only yours.
 
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Thekla

Thekla

The Lord will take me home.
May 29, 2024
52
Hugs. Although I don't know you in person, I am still sure you are not a burden to the world, even if sometimes it unfortunately seems to you that it's otherwise. But of course the choice is only yours.
The unfortunate truth of the situation is that the adult figures in my life were right. I am nothing without education, and I can't get one. Because I'm stupid. I am so unbelievably fucking stupid. I can't add two-digit numbers together, that's how stupid I am. So, I can never amount to anything more than the stupid fucking idiot I am. It's impressive how much I hate myself.

I wish it weren't true, but it can't be helped. Thank you for your concerns.
 
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anonymous1234554321

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Apr 25, 2025
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The unfortunate truth of the situation is that the adult figures in my life were right. I am nothing without education, and I can't get one. Because I'm stupid. I am so unbelievably fucking stupid. I can't add two-digit numbers together, that's how stupid I am. So, I can never amount to anything more than the stupid fucking idiot I am. It's impressive how much I hate myself.

I wish it weren't true, but it can't be helped. Thank you for your concerns.
Well, a person's value and worth are definitely not defined by education and mathematical skills, but it's your life and your decision of course, it's sad that this life hasn't brought you happiness, but I wish you finding the peace which you want, whether you finish it or rethink this decision.
 
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Thekla

Thekla

The Lord will take me home.
May 29, 2024
52
I'll probably be waiting for Deltarune Chapters 3 & 4, then I'll do it. Lol.
 
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