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Randy Savage

Randy Savage

“Macho Man”
Jul 23, 2024
47
I gave myself 6 months to get back on track, told myself that things could get better, but now I'm stuck in the same place I always seem to be in. I tried my best not to think of suicide and to always stay positive. But I ended up drinking, getting high, and lying to myself and others for the entire time. I give up on getting better.

No matter how hard I try I will always be a hideous loser. I have a disgusting acne-ridden caveman face and the body of a pig. Nobody in my life will ever love me or care for me because when they look at me, all they see is a disgusting mentally ill creep who is pretending to be a woman. The only reason I thought I could be a girl was because I'm autistic and I saw that other trans girls were pretty. But it only took so long for me to realize that hideous balding brick-shaped men can never even come close to looking like a girl. The saddest part is that I deserve this.

I am a pathetic person and honestly at this point I look at myself with the same disgust that other people look at me with. I hardly do anything besides wallow in my own self hatred and stupidity while I smoke, drink, and shoot up. I'm a drug addicted man in a dress and the world will be better off when I shoot myself.
 
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Noob

Noob

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Aug 10, 2021
20
I keep giving myself timelines like the one you mentioned... x months if i don't achieve this or that i will just quit... and then i fail and do it again. Fucking sucks because it yet pay off, things only gets worse by the day.
 

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