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Pigeonleaderboard44

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I hate myself so much. My grades are dropping. I just keep working. I did a hookup and felt disgusting afterwards. I feel disgusting. I don't want to shower, I don't want to sleep, I'm eating but I eventually want to stop that too. I don't want to go to school or work tomorrow but I don't have a choice. I want to die so badly. I hate waking up so early to get paid pennies. I hate my body and how fat I am. I hate my life. I hate how I don't do anything I want. I hope a car hits me tomorrow. I want to down my pill bottles. I want to jump in front of the train during my commute. I just can't take it anymore
I wish I never did that hookup. I feel disgusting even touching my own body. I feel like a piece of meat. I want to down a couple of pills and drink some alcohol. Just so that I don't feel as bad. I don't think I can go to work like this.
I got a punish myself. Someone like me doesn't deserve a life
 
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