it’s my fault

[bakedbombshell]

my life fucking sucks and i have no one to blame but myself. i hate it. i hate everything. i'm jealous of everyone around me who drives by me and doesn't have to walk 45 minutes to work because THEY didn't crash their car as my legs ache and i think about how shitty work is. i see my peers drinking and studying for tests at college because THEY don't fuck up as badly as I do.

 

[Rachel74]

Have you an illness or just life just suck for you?

 

[bakedbombshell]

Have you an illness or just life just suck for you?

situational depression. but my rationale can be pretty dangerous. i've had multiple suicide attempts since 8th grade and totally fucked up my relationship with my parents. yeah my life is complete fucking shit that's mainly the problem. metaphorically, my hand in poker, i should've folded before everyone bet.

 

[Rachel74]

Are you taking anything for depression if not then do that.

 

[WhiteDespair]

@Rachel74 is correct. At least give it a shot. You may be surprised at the results.

 

[GinaIsReady]

OP: i am sorry that you are suffering so. Truly. I hope you are ok.