Zeir Anpin 729
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- Aug 11, 2025
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I've spent months looking for a "peaceful pill". Philip Nitschke and the Exit International organization (both the forum and the outreach center in Washington State) have failed me. The "Peaceful Pill Handbook" put out by them recommends Nembutal. However, this drug is impossible to get and the entire organization fails to even provide one good example worth attempting in obtaining this drug. Ever since the public backlash, they have gone into hiding and let their methods grow completely outdated.
I continued to search for a "peaceful pill". I really wanted a quiet exit because I am a peaceful person. I looked into hydrogen cyanide and ferrocyanide, but those where also off the table. I looked into nitrogen gas tanks, but I didn't have the money or the necessary transportation vehicle to obtain one legally. Finally, in desperation, I looked into combinations of prescription medications, and came up with the little known solution of Phenelzine and Amitriptyline, which can be enhanced easily with grapefruit juice. But still, everything was theoretical, and in terms of actual, real world actions that I could take, there was none.
I guess now I realize there is no peaceful way out. I will have to try hanging again, but this time not quit when the pain overwhelms my brain. Last time it crushed my adams apple, but I was using a bunch of trash bags tied together as a make-shift rope. This time I will buy real rope, and it will be good, unbreakable, high-quality rope.
Hanging is incredibly violent and hard but I really want this and I have no other choice. I wish there was a peaceful way. But pro-lifers took all that away. I will hang myself very soon. Hopefully within the next few hours. I just need the rope. My dad wants me to move in with him tomorrow, and I really hate him, and need to die as soon as possible. I cannot stand to be around that bastard and I need to die now. There can be no more messing around. I hope this works. This has to work, I have accepted the pain of hanging and all the violence and am so done with life that I am ready for it.
If you are wasting time looking for that "peaceful pill", I can promise you that there is none. The closest thing is soy sauce or perhaps sodium nitrite. But I have tried these things as well and only choked on them. It is much more efficient and realistic to accept that the days of Philip Nitschke and Exit International are over and that truly all of us in this world are lost and without hope, whether we learn to see it that way or not. I hope I'm ready. I hope this works. This is likely going to be my last words and my last internet posting ever. Thanks for reading this thread if you did.
I continued to search for a "peaceful pill". I really wanted a quiet exit because I am a peaceful person. I looked into hydrogen cyanide and ferrocyanide, but those where also off the table. I looked into nitrogen gas tanks, but I didn't have the money or the necessary transportation vehicle to obtain one legally. Finally, in desperation, I looked into combinations of prescription medications, and came up with the little known solution of Phenelzine and Amitriptyline, which can be enhanced easily with grapefruit juice. But still, everything was theoretical, and in terms of actual, real world actions that I could take, there was none.
I guess now I realize there is no peaceful way out. I will have to try hanging again, but this time not quit when the pain overwhelms my brain. Last time it crushed my adams apple, but I was using a bunch of trash bags tied together as a make-shift rope. This time I will buy real rope, and it will be good, unbreakable, high-quality rope.
Hanging is incredibly violent and hard but I really want this and I have no other choice. I wish there was a peaceful way. But pro-lifers took all that away. I will hang myself very soon. Hopefully within the next few hours. I just need the rope. My dad wants me to move in with him tomorrow, and I really hate him, and need to die as soon as possible. I cannot stand to be around that bastard and I need to die now. There can be no more messing around. I hope this works. This has to work, I have accepted the pain of hanging and all the violence and am so done with life that I am ready for it.
If you are wasting time looking for that "peaceful pill", I can promise you that there is none. The closest thing is soy sauce or perhaps sodium nitrite. But I have tried these things as well and only choked on them. It is much more efficient and realistic to accept that the days of Philip Nitschke and Exit International are over and that truly all of us in this world are lost and without hope, whether we learn to see it that way or not. I hope I'm ready. I hope this works. This is likely going to be my last words and my last internet posting ever. Thanks for reading this thread if you did.
