Venting it's been so hard.

[lanadelreyisgod223]

this year has been such hell. i cry every morning, every night, sometimes even all day. everything triggers it. seeing a cute guy triggers it, knowing that i'll never know the love and tenderness of a man because i am trans and doomed to be alone. i'm tired of pretending like it's okay and other people telling me it's okay. it's not okay. nothing is okay. it's fucking horrible and no one sees that apparently. i'm so tired of this. i don't even have any words left to say. every time i think it's getting better and i won't end up dead by my own hands, life humbles me and brings me back to reality. it was meant to be this way. i literally never had a fucking chance.