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ChildrensITV

ChildrensITV

Arcanist
Mar 14, 2023
469
No choice to be here. If you leave on your own terms, you'll have committed the greatest sin. No guarantee of God's help, but the second u take matters into your own hands, then you're noticed, judged and punished.

It's like being born into a prisoner's camp. You just have to suffer it. All you can do is wake up and hope today isn't as shit as yesterday.

I will probably never LIKE being alive, but with a few TWEAKS, I would be willing to serve the rest of my sentence and not end it myself. But I can't have those tweaks. My life is the worst life of all the people I know IRL. Yet nobody knows how much it takes to keep it together. They have no idea how much it takes to be me. They would call me a coward if I CTB'd, but they have no idea what I have to go through, what I've been through and what my fate looks like if nothing improves.

I'm so fucking tired.
 
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apearl

mitski fan
Sep 25, 2023
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Yeah thats kind of how I feel too. Your born into a world and forced to play a role in it or you suffer homelessness/starvation/sickness (but you might still suffer with those with a job and motivation if your unlucky enough).

And they take away all the easy ways out, so you have to either work hard to hopefully find a peaceful way to ctb or die brutally.
 
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