It hurts so much

[sohopelessandempty]

I can't even think straight, being alive is so excruciating. It never ends. The pain never ceases. And it's hard to be honest with anyone in my personal life without fearing hospitalization, or other negative consequences. At least here we can say whatever we want without those fears. I just wish this pain would go away, death is the only way to get rid of it but I am trapped alive due to circumstances that take forever to explain.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I always find it so painful to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence, for me every second is torture to be conscious, all I want is some peace from the cruelty, suffering and torture of existing, I just want to never suffer again, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[sohopelessandempty]

I really understand, I always find it so painful to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence, for me every second is torture to be conscious, all I want is some peace from the cruelty, suffering and torture of existing, I just want to never suffer again, I hope you find the relief you search for.

I know we are strangers but I feel like you, and many others here are the only people who truly understand how I feel. It's such an interesting feeling knowing I don't actually know anyone here, but we all have a mutual understanding of each other. When you said every second is torture to be conscious, that's what makes me feel like you truly understand me. It's not necessarily life circumstances that cause my suffering(although it can make things worse), it's being alive in itself. It's torture. Thank you for taking the time to reply, it makes me feel less alone. I truly hope you find relief one day too. It's so cruel we are forced to live like this, unable to access a painless death.