Discussion Isn't it horrible,that you have no control over when and how you can die,

[fkyou]

Isn't it horrible,that you have no control over when and how you can die,how you have to wait an uncertain period of time until you get "alone time" and do it, could be days months or years,then somehow after during that long time you are supposed to stay with the same courage passion to ctb otherwise you'll not do it, I can say that this period of waiting to ctb (having no control uncertainty doubt fear waiting and skipping days and nights because I couldn't do it for whatever reason) was more hard than what I've been through my whole life, I've never been sadder pained more than this.ive experienced what it truly means to be in a bad mental state, almost crazy and delusional, and it makes sense for this to happen, because once things start to break down and there's no resistance everything collapses. How can the parents of all society who ban peaceful exit methods from their adult children justify this.this is disgusting,that I've been forced to wait for ages before I even get a chance,an unreliable "chance" , left to pass through each day and month knowing it all amounted to nothing. Do they know how fkn awful it is to live like this. What should've been an easy exit from a bad life turned into a self esteem nightmare.how dare they do this to their own children.
Originally ,in my first days I was in peace with my fate to die.. today I'm a mess even death will not compensate for this humiliation I felt. I'm angry stressed deprived and everything,my mental health went from 70% to 10% during this time.

 

[2muchpain2]

I feel every word of this. I'm going thru it right now, I'm barely hanging on. i agree it is unfair that we cannot peacefully end our own suffering. The mental health "help" I've received over the years has not helped at all and once they prescribe meds you are left on your own. it's a horrible existance I don't know what to do

 

[moonlightbeach]

RIGHT????? i think people think of catching the bus as impulsive and not thought out but some people take years and months of grace period to try and get the right moment or see if things get any better. it took me 2 days to actually do my attempt but when i failed for the first time i was so so so sad. felt so miserable that i had to stay alive even for one more day. dying of natural causes sounds like years of suffering and not knowing what your life is going to be like. i think it's so fair that ctb is an option because we're all going to die unless humanity finds a way to regenerate us. but then, i don't know if people would like to live for 125 years or more.

How can the parents of all society who ban peaceful exit methods from their adult children justify this

i think for most parents this is just how they grew up. this is what they learned. if life gives you troubles you beat them no matter what. there's a big chance the parents have not felt as bad as you do now. for example no one in my bloodline or even other relatives have ever went through something as jarring. if they have never felt that the suffering is too much and that you can't do it they most likely won't understand it. maybe they'll try and read and research but they'll never fully understand how it is in the mind of a suicidal person. i know that because countless therapists and psychiatrists have not given me any sound advice, while people on sasu are more relatable than anyone i have ever talked to.

 

[fkyou]

it took me 2 days to actually do my attempt but when i failed for the first time i was so so so sad.

Yeah..even the fact that I can't do it at night angers me so much.. that's the time when I feel a little bit of something..during the day I'm numb and sad..daytime reminds me of the awful world out there and it scares me.. that's why I prefer night.

 

[Off_Switch]

Being eaten by sabretooth tigers...
Bubonic plague...
Countless wars and ruthless dictators...
Great depressions...

...and now the current dystopian shit show and collapse of society that we get to experience now.

Why people continue to procreate despite the constant suffering that human existence continually seems to offer will ever make sense to me.

 

[Dejected 55]

I think it is arguable that even without suicidal feelings... we should be able to decide our own ends. Maybe you live into your 90s and you've seen and done everything and you're losing your ability to do or experience anything new or enjoyable. You might not be depressed, but see no point in waiting around to potentially have a painful death... and you want to go out on your own peaceful terms while you still can make such a decision on your own.

That seems like it should be acceptable to me.