Venting is there something to truly be happy for?

[overmorrow]

is there even something that makes you happy? something worth living for?

the more I go through every day, the more i feel like everything is absolutely useless and meaningless, it's nihilistic.

like, what the fuck Is this? what is this life?? it's actually so agonizing, wth... the only slight joy i get nowadays is when i smoke.

I can't understand how normies manage to go through this everyday, and still be somehow positive and cheerful, about interacting with others and the future, its impressive

 

[ZornTheDreaded]

is there even something that makes you happy? something worth living for?

the more I go through every day, the more i feel like everything is absolutely useless and meaningless, it's nihilistic.

like, what the fuck Is this? what is this life?? it's actually so agonizing, wth... the only slight joy i get nowadays is when i smoke.

I can't understand how normies manage to go through this everyday, and still be somehow positive and cheerful, about interacting with others and the future, its impressive

nope, nothing happy, nothing to live for, only thing to want is to CTB and soon.

 

[justanotherfailure]

I'd like to think there is, but sometimes it just feels hopeless. Even moments of happiness are fleeting, and they leave me emptier than I was before.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

to me there isn't anything to be happy for. fleeting pleasure addictions are not worth even 1 second of the worst pain to me.

the worst toturue , any suffering would't have trapped me others or have ever existed if it weren't for pleasure seeking or seeking things to make one happy.

evolution gamed us . put a pleasure and a carrot on a stick . and a fleeting pleasure reward as for example the enjoymeent you get from eating food. but it's only to pass on your genes . there is no other purpose why eating food is pleasurable .so just this example shows pleasure creates pain. there's much more a book no one has writtent to explain these things further. but if our ancestors didn't find food pleasurable they wouldn't eat enough and so die quicker before reproducing and then me and none of us would be here. and that's only one pleasure. so in a way evolution is tricking us gaming us scamming us. we think oh joy this feels good. but it's a lie. it feels good for the purpose of passing on your DNA genes. that's it. that's the purpose.

but these pleasurable enjoyable happy moments are fleeting . the worst pain is more intense and longer lasting. much more intense and much longer lasting. so it's a bait and switch . a scam.

plus on top of that imo these "things to be happy for" are meaningless time wasting addictions, pleasure addictions implanted into my brain by evolution ( for example eating food) and culture society ( watching youtube videos

the pleasure addicitons keep me distracted from what i need to do and to find out and internalize what reality really is. time is the only resource you have and the addictions steal all my time and addict me more to them. they keep it from my mind to internalize how bad the worst pain is . it's because of seeking enjoyment i haven't made progress on deciding getting a suicide method ready to go , defeating my si etc.

 

[Abandoned Phantom]

Sure. There are a few. But then theres nothing in between those moments. A few short bursts of hapiness in a week, really don't mean much. All the hard work of making it through the week just to have a few moments of happiness? How is that worth it!

 

[katara]

Sure. There are a few. But then theres nothing in between those moments. A few short bursts of hapiness in a week, really don't mean much. All the hard work of making it through the week just to have a few moments of happiness? How is that worth it!

Im at the point I don't even get a few anymore

 

[itsgone2]

I can't understand how normies manage to go through this everyday, and still be somehow positive and cheerful, about interacting with others and the future, its impressive

This was me for a long time. But things have changed. A lot. When you just show up to work, learn things, maybe get new responsibilities, it's fine. But now companies are selling, downsizing only for profit, outsourcing, using AI. Workforce decline is a serious issue that's rapidly accelerating. And no one does anything about it.

But then you look around and see a lot of people struggling. And it's not good. Everything starts to seem pointless. It happens to people over and over again. Work is so essential and now it's meaningless. So then what's the point?

 

[alstroemeria55]

Even if there was something to be happy for I can't even feel happiness or excitement anymore. I survive every day and I don't really know what I'm surviving for, but dying is harder than I hoped it would be, and the routine of the things I somehow chose to be responsible for pulls me along. I can't even be happy when things seem to be looking up. I just feel so broken and done for that there's no other choice but to leave permanently.

 

[Bruce]

is there even something that makes you happy?

There are, were? many many things! The clear blue sky, the feel of the wind on your face, the birds soaring, singing, the sound of waves crashing on the shore. But I can't enjoy them anymore, or I'm not allowed to. I'm not even sure anymore. Maybe I could if there would be no humans around, but there they are and they drown everything that they touch in sorrow. : (

I can't understand how normies manage to go through this everyday, and still be somehow positive and cheerful

They are blind.

 

[kipstriesagain]

is there even something that makes you happy? something worth living for?

the more I go through every day, the more i feel like everything is absolutely useless and meaningless, it's nihilistic.

like, what the fuck Is this? what is this life?? it's actually so agonizing, wth... the only slight joy i get nowadays is when i smoke.

I can't understand how normies manage to go through this everyday, and still be somehow positive and cheerful, about interacting with others and the future, its impressive

Everything that used to make me happy either stresses me out or fades too quickly to enjoy. I've really taken the phrase "nothing good lasts forever" to heart recently. So I just lay in bed instead of using my free time. Either sleeping or awake with my eyes closed. Dreaming makes me happy, every day I look forward to going back to bed or taking a nap.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

There is only one thing that makes me kind-of almost happy in a way... and that is that my life will end one way or another, no matter what. I think of place in the cemetery that I bought and I like to reflect on the fact that I will inevitably, someday, be a little collection of ashes there. Please God, soon.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

i mean....there's a couple of moments where i'm happy and feel great. also feels nice when i'm talking to my bf or listening to music. but ofc those never really last. i don't think any of it will outweigh my will to die anyways. sometimes i feel as if i don't even deserve these moments of happiness, even. i just wish to end my suffering once and for all when the time comes.

 

[shiftingtendons]

sure, sometimes i feel kinda happy. but then the worst most devastating thing will happen to me and it outweighs the good so much. and that happens SO frequently. the bleakness of the future make the happiness last a little shorter too.

 

[Slark]

Not currently. Sometimes I feel euphoric, but I wouldn't classify it as happiness.

 

[astroproto]

There's a lot, games, music, movies, chats here and there with internet strangers. I fucking love the rain, my midnight walks, watching the sky.

But like in order to keep enjoying them, you have to actually be useful to society. You need to be good enough at socializing and have a good enough head on your shoulders and be normal enough to be functioning and I barely meet any of those requirements.

 

[vitbar]

My depression comes and goes. Nothing else changes, but it feels like everything does. There is a lot to love about life. I like seeing beauty in everyday scenes, vibing with people, helping people, learning new things, working on hobbies, playing with my pets, etc.

plus on top of that imo these "things to be happy for" are meaningless time wasting addictions, pleasure addictions implanted into my brain by evolution ( for example eating food) and culture society ( watching youtube video

the reason certain things cause suffering is also the product of evolution.

 

[ChamberOfEchoes]

There are no happy people, only people who are more or less skilled at escaping what torments them. Illusions, gurus, peddlers of smoke, psychoanalysis; and then there are also those who feel better when they see others suffering. You notice this every day, for example when people tell each other their misfortunes: my neighbor loses his child in a car accident, he tells me about it, and I go home filled with joy and cook dinner, happy that in my family we have not yet been struck by that misfortune, but it happened to the neighbor. This shows that there are many mechanisms of gratification: it is not just about sex, food, or religion, there is also cruelty, the desire to take pleasure in the suffering of others. This last aspect is always underestimated, but the desire to force others to do something, to forbid people euthanasia if I am religious because if they remain here suffering I feel better and my own suffering becomes lighter; and so, as a consequence, I also take pleasure in seeing them in the hospital, suffering. I enjoy watching people struggle to make it to the end of the month: if I watch the news and hear that there are ten million poor people in my country, I feel better, because maybe I too struggle to make it to the end of the month, but I am not that poor. Or I meet friends at the bar and hear that someone has developed cancer, or has a debilitating illness, or has lost their sight: people fill themselves with joy over this.

"Misery loves company."

 

[Bruce]

There's a lot, games, music, movies, chats here and there with internet strangers. I fucking love the rain, my midnight walks, watching the sky.

But like in order to keep enjoying them, you have to actually be useful to society. You need to be good enough at socializing and have a good enough head on your shoulders and be normal enough to be functioning and I barely meet any of those requirements.

I love those things too! : )

But I disagree with you. : ( You don't need to be useful, you don't need to be social you just need to be left alone to enjoy them. Actually, there are times when if others are near they might spoil the experiences because they don't know how to appreciate those things.

There are no happy people, only people who are more or less skilled at escaping what torments them. Illusions, gurus, peddlers of smoke, psychoanalysis; and then there are also those who feel better when they see others suffering. You notice this every day, for example when people tell each other their misfortunes: my neighbor loses his child in a car accident, he tells me about it, and I go home filled with joy and cook dinner, happy that in my family we have not yet been struck by that misfortune, but it happened to the neighbor. This shows that there are many mechanisms of gratification: it is not just about sex, food, or religion, there is also cruelty, the desire to take pleasure in the suffering of others. This last aspect is always underestimated, but the desire to force others to do something, to forbid people euthanasia if I am religious because if they remain here suffering I feel better and my own suffering becomes lighter; and so, as a consequence, I also take pleasure in seeing them in the hospital, suffering. I enjoy watching people struggle to make it to the end of the month: if I watch the news and hear that there are ten million poor people in my country, I feel better, because maybe I too struggle to make it to the end of the month, but I am not that poor. Or I meet friends at the bar and hear that someone has developed cancer, or has a debilitating illness, or has lost their sight: people fill themselves with joy over this.

"Misery loves company."

Now wait a moment! Being happy that a person who I care about is doing good when I hear that someone else is doing bad does not mean that I'm happy because said person is doing bad. I'm just happy that the person who I care about was lucky, or smart.

As for how I feel about others, I mean, it depends. If a person deserves it, then yeah, sure, let them have it! If they do not then I would feel sadness for them. If I don't know them then I wouldn't feel much.

 

[ctbcat]

wildlife & nature make me happy. i like knowing they are there. they will not be for very long if this cannibalistic world continues. but last time i tried to kill myself i just got sad about never being able to see ducks ever again after seeing them earlier in the day and i gave up trying beyond any logic.

 

[astroproto]

I love those things too! : )

But I disagree with you. : ( You don't need to be useful, you don't need to be social you just need to be left alone to enjoy them. Actually, there are times when if others are near they might spoil the experiences because they don't know how to appreciate those things.

The thing is you need to survive. Some people might find ways to be self-sustaining but that's not really me so I'd have to get a job, which requires getting along with others to some degree and functioning well enough.

 

[Bruce]

The thing is you need to survive. Some people might find ways to be self-sustaining but that's not really me so I'd have to get a job, which requires getting along with others to some degree and functioning well enough.

You don't really need to survive, unless you want to. This too is a choice. I wake up every day and I decide if I'm going to use the rope or not.

You could get a job and have minimum or no interaction or fake interaction with others. Unless you choose to do something social. I could work as a pilot (which I did) but I cannot work a fitness trainer (which I decided not to).

 

[lawlietsph]

no, there is nothing
everything is pointless and meaningless