Venting Is there hope for someone like me?

[thelostautistic]

Despite how hard things are right now I'm thinking about giving life one more go. But am I being realistic? Could things actually get better for someone like me? I'm Autistic, mentally ill and also have a chronic illness. I don't work and don't have much of a social life. I'm so scared of the world because I've been let down and hurt so many times. So I stay at home in my room where I feel safe. How do I even begin to live my life instead of just existing in sadness? I do have goals and dreams but depression and past trauma clouds everything.

Sometimes I just think that getting better is too big of a job and I'll never be able to do it. So ending my life seems like the easier option I just don't know how much fight I have left

 

[Kayla]

Things can get better for someone like you. We're in similar situations. Just don't expect things to get better straight away; these things just take some time. Start with small things and work your way up until you're confident. Wishing you the best

 

[thelostautistic]

Things can get better for someone like you. We're in similar situations. Just don't expect things to get better straight away; these things just take some time. Start with small things and work your way up until you're confident. Wishing you the best

Thank you for being so kind. I really appreciate it

 

[tonicer]

I also wish you the best.

I guess you're still young but I am 40+ and i don't have much more fight in me. All i am doing right now is waiting for my parents to die (both are ~80) and then i travel somewhere with nice high buildings and jump off of one. I achieved nothing in life except being a KHHV that is highly educated but no matter how many job applications i send out of how many job interviews i attend no company wants me. If i at least could get a hug from a woman i would maybe be able to fight on but this all feels meaningless. Being born ugly is a real life curse.