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emilyprentiss

emilyprentiss

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Oct 26, 2025
15
d-day is fairly soon for me, i am struggling to make concrete plans due to the absurdity and constant swinging of my mental state but i know it's necessary and I'll be much calmer once ive decided how to be rid of everything. when I envision the day I can't really think of anything to mark it if I am making sense. I have no letters worth writing and there is no longer anything i enjoy doing. i thought when i ended it i would empty my bank account but I don't see the point in buying things that I more than likely won't live to see delivered just for the sake of draining my money, and i inherently don't deserve any such possessions because i am worthless. sleeping is the only thing that makes me happy and i will be sleeping ever so much. I am just rambling but the day before or the day itself when you end it do you have any plans or is there anything you'd want to do before it's over?
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
I spent what I thought was my last day with my parents. It was a perfect last day for me. Then I survived. I won't be living through another day like that, it was painful being with them knowing what I was planning. My next last day will be in a different state, an unfamiliar place to me. I will be alone. There will be nothing for me to do. I will just be waiting to die.
 
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emilyprentiss

emilyprentiss

Member
Oct 26, 2025
15
I spent what I thought was my last day with my parents. It was a perfect last day for me. Then I survived. I won't be living through another day like that, it was painful being with them knowing what I was planning. My next last day will be in a different state, an unfamiliar place to me. I will be alone. There will be nothing for me to do. I will just be waiting to die.
i understand you very well, i don't really want to do anything. i have fallen so far into the need to suffer i now realise i deserve nothing else. if I take enjoyment in anything it is a failure to punish myself sufficiently. i hope you are able to feel peaceful.
 
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waqs

waqs

1553470665499594756
Sep 9, 2025
53
probably just rest my mind for once, when im awake it feels like my mind is always scattered everywhere, either from college, person projects, talking to people, ect. ill want to spend my last day just doing nothing, working on nothing, might get high to achieve this idk lmao
 
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VoidBlessed

Student
Dec 2, 2024
155
Watch the sun rise over the ocean. My two favorite things in the world enjoyed in perfect solitude.
 
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kopebaldy

Dovahkiin
Jul 5, 2025
418
Place a curse on Todd Howard for not releasing TES6 earlier lol
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
354
Place a curse on Todd Howard for not releasing TES6 earlier lol
This tho, argh, I'll be gone long before it comes out but damn the wait better be worth it for everyone else.
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

Enlightened
Aug 28, 2021
1,319
There is only one point on my last day's agenda: Hanging myself.
 
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ZornTheDreaded

Member
Oct 29, 2025
54
Nah, no point to do anything, just want to CTB ASAP and with the least pain possible
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

Dead inside
Nov 1, 2025
195
The only thing I would do on my last day is sleep. I wouldn't feel like doing anything else.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,226
Last day. Darre to dream. Would love for it to just get here
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
622
I would do nothing special on that day. In The days leading to that event i will most likely visit my grandma's grave. She was like a mother to me. She was the only person that ever loved me in this sad life of mine. Sadly she has been gone from my life for more than 20 years, but i still remember her unconditional love like it was yesterday.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,073
No, I just want to cease existing in peace and never suffer again, it's all I want, I just want all to be gone and forgotten, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me, I just hope for peace from the dreadful, torturous abomination of existence, I'd never wish for any of this, I just want the peace of non-existence where there is no more pain and no more suffering, I find it so undesirable to exist in every way and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence.
 
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PurpleMorality

PurpleMorality

Questioning
Mar 31, 2024
14
I'd like to ride a horse on my last day. I love horses and horseback riding, so I'd like to do that. Other than that, it would probably be best to be alone and away from people for the day.
 
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Leonard_Bangley39

Too pathetic to even catch the bus
Nov 6, 2025
111
on my ctb day i plan on live streaming it online
 
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Gonk

Gonk

failed perfectionist
Oct 20, 2024
22
Oh well, a fine barrel of good whiskey, perhaps Scotch. Few glasses, not so much, I am not a kind of person who gets drunk, never been. And perhaps pondering about past, good memories and a toast to the emptyness. Then I would do it, and realistically I expect to see myself struggling to make it final push. But last face would have a peaceful look.
 
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Zenna

Member
Nov 9, 2025
24
d-day is fairly soon for me, i am struggling to make concrete plans due to the absurdity and constant swinging of my mental state but i know it's necessary and I'll be much calmer once ive decided how to be rid of everything. when I envision the day I can't really think of anything to mark it if I am making sense. I have no letters worth writing and there is no longer anything i enjoy doing. i thought when i ended it i would empty my bank account but I don't see the point in buying things that I more than likely won't live to see delivered just for the sake of draining my money, and i inherently don't deserve any such possessions because i am worthless. sleeping is the only thing that makes me happy and i will be sleeping ever so much. I am just rambling but the day before or the day itself when you end it do you have any plans or is there anything you'd want to do before it's over?
During my last 2 failt attampts i donated all my money too animal protection stuff because i didn't want that any of my relatives get anything.


If I could with my methods do it i would probably drink mate, strawberry milk and one last Cosmopolitan.

Nothing speciel because i dont have anything that i like when i dont have a person that shows me what i like or what i dislike
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
555
Will have 24 hours of my favorite food, then will end it.
 
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littlecutecorpse

littlecutecorpse

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ absolute girlfailure ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
Nov 13, 2025
171
probably nothing but finalize ctb plans and wipe my face off the internet. i would wish to do something nice beforehand but i know that will never come to be considering my boring, sad life

(also yes i am new here. hi hello. excuse this amateur lurking around)
 
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