Is the way I use self harm weird?

[hate_myself]

Even though I hate myself and self harm, i dont do it to the extend others do... i feel.
Ever since i started my cuts never go deep, I just cut the surface, i do it on my thigh where it stays hidden. I'm a coward and feel pain so it has been a slow progression, however I do it so as to not hinder my movility, and dont have a mayor infection since i want it hidden.
I dont do it out of hate... normally I cant feel anything it's just nice to release calmly, for me its like drawing with a pen, its morbidly detached yet I feel calm the more i cut myself.
Tho i ran out of paper often... i only have so much of my thigh to "draw" in, and I do it every single day. I dunno if anyone is gonna simpathize with me, since compared to a lot of people who are emotional when they do it... im very calm, like if my feeling have numbed but are still there and need release.
I do it like if i were to walk somewhere, or grab something or just do something. Like another action that needs no thought nor emotion, yet an action that needs to be made.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Omg I pretty much do the same! I do it hard enough to feel it but I rarely cut deep. My upper thigh is crisis crossed with scars right now. Those were made last month or so.

 

[autumnal]

Your use of self-harm doesn't sound particularly unusual. There is help available should you choose it.

 

[theguineapigking]

I used to punch my face really hard and I think I damaged my jaw since it started clicking. You could hear the whacks in the basement. I eventually started cutting so I wouldn't suffer headaches and permanent jab damage. I cut on the surface of my stomach. Last year there were lots of bleeding scratches all over. It even bled through my shirt some so I started wearing a red one. I did however do it out of hatred and not for the endorphins. But I do completely understand what you mean. Sadly my parents saw it when I was playing a game with my arms stretched back in my room. Bad bad bad idea. My doctor somehow eyed my scars when I went for a checkup even though my shirt was on and he barely had visual. Aye Caramba.

 

[ashestoashxs]

I do the same kind of thing. It's sometimes out of hate, but a lot of the time I feel numb, and the pain is a temporary break, but I am a coward and can't cut very deep and it makes me feel weak. I normally draw/write on my thigh to keep it hidden.