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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
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I often think about my death. All the different possible situations. One thing in common is my friend 'saving' me. That was typically where it stopped. But the past day or so I've been thinking about life after that.

Scheduled. Wake up. Go for a walk. Take meds. Drink shroom coffee. Make breakfast. Do the dishes. Sweep. Mop. Laundry. Another shroom coffee. Lunch. Some hours to do stuff. Supper. Meds. Bed.

Yes, I did mention a few hours to do what I want but for the most part.... It feels so scheduled.

I use to do that. Before I went to bed id plan my next school day down to a T. I was going to talk to this person about this specific thing at this time. I was learning about this in this class. I'll talk to this person at this time.

Living feels so robotic. Maybe that's just me.
 
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Mizuri

Mizuri

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Feb 8, 2021
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Do you work or study there?
 
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Makko

Makko

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Jan 17, 2021
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It's not better or worse, just different, and not really comparable. Is orange better than necktie?
 
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