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UnoriginalName21

UnoriginalName21

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Nov 1, 2025
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Alright so my life fucking sucks but thats normal for this website. The strange thing is that I cant fucking cry. I used to when I was younger but now even when I try to cry nothing happens. Does this happen to anyone else?
 
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vig919

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Oct 13, 2025
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Me. I've totally gone grey rock. Nothing effects me now. I'm dead inside
 
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UnoriginalName21

UnoriginalName21

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Nov 1, 2025
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Hey glad im not the only fucked one. eh at least I still laugh every once in a while even when its from self deprecation
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

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May 21, 2025
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I've been scolded too many times for crying, I've been told crying doesn't mean anything, and that shit stuck. Its been 3 years since I cried about anything.
 
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fromange

fromange

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Oct 29, 2025
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I also haven't cried at my worst depression and suicidal rumination. Everyone's unique. By definition it may not be "normal" but doesn't mean your thoughts and feelings are invalid. It must feel good though.
 
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LittleSunshine

LittleSunshine

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Jul 20, 2025
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It's rare now, but that's mostly because of the antidepressants I take. I used to cry easily, and I hate that I can barely do it anymore. The feelings are still there, weighing me down.
 
UnoriginalName21

UnoriginalName21

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Nov 1, 2025
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It's rare now, but that's mostly because of the antidepressants I take. I used to cry easily, and I hate that I can barely do it anymore. The feelings are still there, weighing me down.
Okay do antidepressants even help? I should prob take mine but they dont seem to do shit
 
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LittleSunshine

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Okay do antidepressants even help? I should prob take mine but they dont seem to do shit

Yeah, they work, until it comes back to bite you in the ass.

My advice, stay away from it if you can.
 
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UnoriginalName21

UnoriginalName21

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Yeah, they work, until it comes back to bite you in the ass.

My advice, stay away from it if you can.
Okay but how do they bite you in the ass? I mean sure you can fuck up yourself if you try to OD on them but nobody with an IQ above 80 would try such an ineffective method
 
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FrozenSummer

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Oct 30, 2024
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It's nearly impossible for me, and if I do somehow it's restrained. I think my brain understands that unleashing the full brunt of my pain would more than likely be fatal to the body. I'm suicidal enough when I'm not acting on impulse. It "keeps me safer" I'm guessing.

Last time I managed to cry was like 6 months after my mom died. Sister died like 6 months after and I never could.

I really need to get back into cutting, it was kind of like crying. But I have to go to extremes at this point for it to actually do very much for me... Which sometimes becomes a real problem to resolve or conceal without a visit to you know where.
 
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LittleSunshine

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Okay but how do they bite you in the ass? I mean sure you can fuck up yourself if you try to OD on them but nobody with an IQ above 80 would try such an ineffective method

There are several people, myself included, on this forum who have been severely damaged by taking or stopping antidepressants. They can create many horrible side effects and post-acute withdrawal syndrome which can last for months to years.
 
UnoriginalName21

UnoriginalName21

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There are several people, myself included, on this forum who have been severely damaged by taking or stopping antidepressants. They can create many horrible side effects and post-acute withdrawal syndrome which can last for months to years.
Fun. Looks like my depressed ass is gonna be fucked forever
 
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LittleSunshine

LittleSunshine

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Fun. Looks like my depressed ass is gonna be fucked forever
Well, if you really need them, then go for it, just make sure you're well-informed and use caution.
 
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