is it more ethical for me to kms in a hotel?

[eggsausagerice]

i just don't really know if i have the budget to buy myself a night in anything but a really crummy hotel. i hate the thought of being in a dirty hotel more than dying in the forest. i have some money saved up that i could put towards booking a hotel for one night, which is where my thought is coming from. earlier in the month i was in a trashy hotel where the fire alarm kept going off in the middle of the night and the carpet smelled moldy. it'd suck if i was in a bad hotel again.

where do other people plan that aren't doing it at home plan on doing it? i see the forest as a more economical option, but the darkness just makes my anxious amp up. in a hotel i could just be watching tv or laying in a bed with a trashcan next to me. most penny pinching cheap hotels are usually the worst ones, so i don't know if it's worth it.

 

[junctionbox]

i think you should be as at peace during your last moments as is possible (so maybe not the forest). you're noble to be thinking of ethics, but no matter where you choose to ctb, the person that finds your body is going to be shaken regardless. maybe if there is a way to let either the staff or authorities know that you have killed yourself and where? i've heard of people leaving timed messages. but that would require a lot of planning and for things to go exactly to plan...

 

[knowledgeseeking]

i just don't really know if i have the budget to buy myself a night in anything but a really crummy hotel. i hate the thought of being in a dirty hotel more than dying in the forest. i have some money saved up that i could put towards booking a hotel for one night, which is where my thought is coming from. earlier in the month i was in a trashy hotel where the fire alarm kept going off in the middle of the night and the carpet smelled moldy. it'd suck if i was in a bad hotel again.

where do other people plan that aren't doing it at home plan on doing it? i see the forest as a more economical option, but the darkness just makes my anxious amp up. in a hotel i could just be watching tv or laying in a bed with a trashcan next to me. most penny pinching cheap hotels are usually the worst ones, so i don't know if it's worth it.

You deserve a good last moment. Save up a little and shop around for decent hotel room.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

You deserve a good last moment. Save up a little and shop around for decent hotel room.

I concur. People, if they are truly committed to it, deserve to be happy and comfortable in death. Those on this forum that plan to take a trip before they CTB, I believe, are getting the best experience. They can see the world and decide whether they want to stay or if they're still comfortable with catching the bus with fewer regrets.

 

[Asya]

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[eggsausagerice]

You deserve a good last moment. Save up a little and shop around for decent hotel room.

thinking on it more now, i really doubt that i'll have the money to afford an uber to a hotel/motel and the hotel itself. i barely have any money in my card right now. the only place i can do it in private is in the forest. it kind of bums me out. i'll probably pack a picnic blanket to lay on and my coat for when it gets colder at night. most people don't have the privilege to die indoors. i wish i could do it in a car, because that would make me feel safer than doing it outside, but i don't have a license to be able to drive to a secluded area.

 

[thelostautistic]

I thought about going to a wooded area I used to go to when I was struggling but I'm worried that I wouldn't be found very quickly so I'm probably going to book a hotel room. Ideally I'd like to be at home in my own bed but the idea of my family finding me is heartbreaking. I can't let that happen.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

The forest idea doesn't sound too bad to me, under the stars, etc. But I'd be more comfortable in a hotel, even if cheap. Not sure about ethics, I guess as long as our affairs are in order, it doesn't matter much. Sorry that your options are limited. I hope you find a place where you can feel at peace.

 

[undecidedfool]

I decided a while ago that I'd ctb in a forest. There's so many secluded hiking trails in my state. I plan to follow a further away one less than half a mile in, go off to the side enough for my body to be hidden, then shoot myself. Right before I do though, I'm going to call 911 so they have my location and paramedics can find me instead of a passerby.
My main goal is to limit giving trauma to people who probably don't deserve it. It's unavoidable that it'll fuck up people close to me for a bit, but finding me would make it worse.

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

I plan to ctb on-top of a mesa, far enough in the woods to where any rescue/resuscitation efforts will fail, but not far enough to where I create a huge mess for first responders and waste a ton of resources. I chose a spot that has phone service, so I can send out my note to family and share the exact location of where my body will be with a 911 operator, right before I take SN. I am pretty anxious about calling 911 in that way though, as once it's done I'll have to take the SN immediately after to avoid being man handled, dragged down the mesa, and locked up in a psych ward.

I hope you're able to make arrangements that make you feel safe and comfortable in your last moments, as you deserve it. Rather it be in a hotel, or a quiet place in the woods that you actually feel safe in, I hope ctb is peaceful for you.

 

[fightclub17]

thinking on it more now, i really doubt that i'll have the money to afford an uber to a hotel/motel and the hotel itself. i barely have any money in my card right now. the only place i can do it in private is in the forest. it kind of bums me out. i'll probably pack a picnic blanket to lay on and my coat for when it gets colder at night. most people don't have the privilege to die indoors. i wish i could do it in a car, because that would make me feel safer than doing it outside, but i don't have a license to be able to drive to a secluded area.

Could you pitch a tent for privacy?

 

[eggsausagerice]

Could you pitch a tent for privacy?

maybe. i'd have to find a cheap tent.

 

[catchy221]

thinking on it more now, i really doubt that i'll have the money to afford an uber to a hotel/motel and the hotel itself. i barely have any money in my card right now. the only place i can do it in private is in the forest. it kind of bums me out. i'll probably pack a picnic blanket to lay on and my coat for when it gets colder at night. most people don't have the privilege to die indoors. i wish i could do it in a car, because that would make me feel safer than doing it outside, but i don't have a license to be able to drive to a secluded area.

i will do the same, i just dont want nobody to find me off guard. i will leave a note for my mom and brother (and police ofc) on where to find me.
and i hope it maybe makes you feel better when youre not the only one doing it that way