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katara

katara

tired all the time
Mar 17, 2022
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I literally can't focus on anything, even years ago when I wanted to read a book I could only do it via audiobook. I'm constantly trying to scan over things but it just doesn't organize properly in my brain. Anyone else have similar issues? This has been a huge part in suicidal thoughts and my depression. If I ever got a job it could never be anything high earning. I just don't know how normal people function.
 
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failedmind

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Oct 31, 2024
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Yes 100%. I was just thinking about this earlier today. My brain feels completely fried and I can't focus or memorize things like I used to. It's so hard to function
 
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breadMan

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Jul 8, 2025
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I literally can't focus on anything, even years ago when I wanted to read a book I could only do it via audiobook. I'm constantly trying to scan over things but it just doesn't organize properly in my brain. Anyone else have similar issues? This has been a huge part in suicidal thoughts and my depression. If I ever got a job it could never be anything high earning. I just don't know how normal people function.
I have been having this ever since a weed induced panic attack that landed me in HR. Ever since then i have not had a singke thought. Camt process anything. Dont remember what it is like to be a person. My main reason for wanting to CTB.
 
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Don’tWakeMe

Don’tWakeMe

Systematic Snooze Alarm
Jul 5, 2025
4
I have been having this ever since a weed induced panic attack that landed me in HR. Ever since then i have not had a singke thought. Camt process anything. Dont remember what it is like to be a person. My main reason for wanting to CTB.
This sounds awful. I can somewhat relate, in a way. I've been unemployed for two years after finishing my masters degree, and I feel like I've been in limbo, my whole existence and personhood and identity hinge on my employment. My job has always been my identity, no job=no identity, (thanks BPD). Check out the book "Everything, Nothing, Someone"; she had a similar experience with CBD oil. It is available as an audiobook.
Yes 100%. I was just thinking about this earlier today. My brain feels completely fried and I can't focus or memorize things like I used to. It's so hard to function
Remember that PTSD and depression cause brain damage. ❤️‍🩹 It's like a really slowly inflicted traumatic brain injury. I have the same issue, also affected by ADHD.
 
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monetpompo

monetpompo

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Apr 21, 2025
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i feel like i'm literally just stupid half the time lol. i have no diagnosis so when i say stuff like "i have autism and adhd" or "i have cpstd", i'm just saying it but i'll never really know for sure. i've been chronically depressed for a long time. since most of my college friends have met me i've struggled with suicidal thoughts or generally thinking that i'm a worthless person. it's hard for me to develop the motivation or attention span to pick up hobbies or do stuff that's fulfilling like read a book. i love watching movies but when i'm in a depressive episode i don't want to turn one on because i'll feel too sad to want to pay attention to it. i'm worse when it comes to school. i feel incapable of doing anything besides elementary math because i feel so anxious trying to relearn it, since i've flunked almost all my math classes. i don't have a job and i go to community college.

in the long summer days where i go a while without seeing anyone or doing anything, i stop existing and just eat, sleep, play video games, and watch youtube videos. it feels like i could go into a coma and die and i'd have the same amount of brain activity i have going on right now. everyone i know seems to be smarter and more capable than me.
 
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katara

katara

tired all the time
Mar 17, 2022
265
Yes 100%. I was just thinking about this earlier today. My brain feels completely fried and I can't focus or memorize things like I used to. It's so hard to function
Ya the memory stuff is why I've never been able to learn a new language. I never understood how people do that but then I remember they probably have opportunity to travel and speak with people. It's just really stressful seeing all these normal people doing normal things. I wonder why it couldn't have been me. Why couldn't I have swapped lives with these people 🥲
 
darksouls

darksouls

Elementalist
May 10, 2025
803
in 2023 I endet up in the intensive care unit with sepsis
the sepsis was caused by an internal infection
this damaged my brain
 
jazzcat621

jazzcat621

My heart for the whole world
Jun 30, 2025
22
I think you pretty much described ADHD. I feel the same way, but especially so lately with my conditions worsening. I wonder if depression and anxiety aggravate it.
 
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mourningyesterday

mourningyesterday

Member
Apr 30, 2025
20
yeah im exactly the same, have to force myself to listen to a youtube video or if somebody is talking to me im not even present my mind just wanders off and races about random shit, like u said it feels my brain is fried is continuously getting worse
 

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