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ChangeWaiter

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Oct 23, 2023
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My depression caused me to loose all the interest in any type of activity. When I'm home (a room in a rehab is currently my home) I just lay in bed, most of the time trying to fall asleep (unsuccessfully) sometimes mindlessly browsing through YT shorts. When I was in mental clinic, they used to discourage us from staying in bed during the day, but this rehab I can lock myself into my room whenever I want, so I developed a routine of avoiding everyone and just staying in bed. I have an actual objective with that strategy. I want to develop a routine I can follow for the rest of my days. I don't feel bad enough to ctb yet and not good enough to have a different form of existence. So my weird strategy to come closer to the end is a simple routine, that I can handle any amount of time. And I think I found mine - just staying in bed whenever I don't have to work. My therapist would advise me to avoid the bed during the day, but that's where we disagree. Maybe I'm onto something here. If I just accept my own rotting away, while it's still bearable, then that could be a form of existence that could last long enough and stop me from ctbing.

I wasn't sure which topic to place this thread under, as I'm not really recovering or am I 🤔
 
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avalokitesvara

avalokitesvara

bodhisattva
Nov 28, 2024
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Cheers I'll drink to that bro!
 
ForestGhost

ForestGhost

The ocean washed over your grave
Aug 25, 2024
205
Yeah, I spend most of my free time in bed hugging a plushie (what I am doing at this exact moment).
 
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exhumed101

exhumed101

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Nov 25, 2024
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My depression caused me to loose all the interest in any type of activity. When I'm home (a room in a rehab is currently my home) I just lay in bed, most of the time trying to fall asleep (unsuccessfully) sometimes mindlessly browsing through YT shorts. When I was in mental clinic, they used to discourage us from staying in bed during the day, but this rehab I can lock myself into my room whenever I want, so I developed a routine of avoiding everyone and just staying in bed. I have an actual objective with that strategy. I want to develop a routine I can follow for the rest of my days. I don't feel bad enough to ctb yet and not good enough to have a different form of existence. So my weird strategy to come closer to the end is a simple routine, that I can handle any amount of time. And I think I found mine - just staying in bed whenever I don't have to work. My therapist would advise me to avoid the bed during the day, but that's where we disagree. Maybe I'm onto something here. If I just accept my own rotting away, while it's still bearable, then that could be a form of existence that could last long enough and stop me from ctbing.

I wasn't sure which topic to place this thread under, as I'm not really recovering or am I 🤔
Bed Rotting
 
JoysoftheEmptiness

JoysoftheEmptiness

Experienced
Sep 10, 2024
233
I've spent alot of time in bed the past week, I suppose a combination of the cold weather, my depression, me still mourning for Ema, and the pain from my spondylosis.
 
YourLocalSadGirly

YourLocalSadGirly

Member
May 6, 2024
16
I do the same thing I'll just lay in bed or sit at my computer for hours not really doing anything just kind of waiting for the hours to pass. I kind of hate it though I've spent hundreds of dollars on games trying to find something that will make me excited for once and I haven't found anything.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
210
I struggle with this. Because depression wakes me up early, I don't need to set an alarm. So I laze in bed for an hour or two, ideate about ctb, etc.

It's so damn hard but you have to set an alarm. Better yet, coffeemaker with a timer. The sound, the smell...I'll get out of bed for that.

Next step is exercise. Out of bed --> coffee --> gym as a regular habit would probably cure me.
 
MidnightCat

MidnightCat

Still 3 more lives to go.
Jan 1, 2023
313
I usually spend a lot of time in bed.

I wake up, I'd soy something for 30 mins... Back to bed for a few hours, rinse and repeat.

Might not be the best, but that's what I have energy for.
 
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ocdsucks

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Dec 5, 2024
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I spend so much time in bed but don't get any actual rest. Just feel exhausted.
 
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howunfortunateforme

Arcanist
Oct 2, 2024
448
Bc of my physical ailments yes then couch harmed my psych drugs can't do any of the things I used to I wish I could leave my bed and house
 

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