5er50ji
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- Jan 27, 2026
- 10
I'm delaying my plans for a few reasons, mostly financial. I wanna pay off a few contracts like my phone and laptop which I stupidly took out a contract for and dental treatment debt before I ctb. I want to make sure I've broken up with my bf and he's in a place on his own and financially stable without me. I want to save up lots of money so my parents don't put themselves into debt for cremation and funeral stuff. I need to shred years worth of embarrassing journal entries. I think this will all take a few years since I work a pretty low paying job.
I have fleeting hopeful thoughts sometimes, thinking 'what if I recover from my depression' by the time I've sorted this stuff but honestly I doubt it. I've been depressed since I was 14 and I'm 27 now. I've fucked up so many aspects of my life. I let depression take over my life, lost friends, did bad at school. I'm barely hanging on but I know I need to plan before I act on anything
I have fleeting hopeful thoughts sometimes, thinking 'what if I recover from my depression' by the time I've sorted this stuff but honestly I doubt it. I've been depressed since I was 14 and I'm 27 now. I've fucked up so many aspects of my life. I let depression take over my life, lost friends, did bad at school. I'm barely hanging on but I know I need to plan before I act on anything
